all by myself....
or maybe...hello?...hello??

I'm here now...
Darkness surrounding my heart thought's are floating
why did you give me this shot
I really thought you were my friend

Don't talk just listen to my voice
The air around me is so damn blurry seems like a veil of mist
This maze confuses me so tell me where we are and why

Don't talk just listen to my voice
Poison run through my veins makes me loose my mind
Sinking into deep trapped by mortal love this time

I'll set you free
I'll give you dreams
I can make you feel this eternal peace in your soul
try to "rest in peace"

Now I hear theur voices whisper stories about my death
still I am not that certain if I'm dead or just asleep

Don't talk just listen to my voice
Falling into an abyss sensing that I'm being moved
probably it's the final journey
maybe I can rest in...peace?

Don't talk just listen to my voice
I'll set you free
I'll give you dreams
I can make you feel this eternal peace in your soul
try to "rest in peace"


2. Queen

Where did she take me
can't see a thing here
I try to move but my body doesn't conform me

Just tyr to rest soon we'll start our journey
then why am I looked up in this cage
now someone opens up the door
I think I've seen this face before
or is this just a fantasy
but in the moment of a blow I see his last journey
then someone other's in control
why did you kill him
his blood is on my hands to I did not want this...failure...
I want to free you from all your soreness
It is to late 'cause I am dead

I'm the queen for one day
I'm the queen for one night

I'm the queen of your fate
I will teach you to scream for silence
Stop what you're doing
it's far to late to rescue me and you
ought to know cause you're the ""healer

Just give me time and I'll give you freedom
you claim my freedom but I'm trapped
so now you want to set me free
still I'm the one that should not be
I really should just fade away and what you're doing
makes no sense cause
I'm lost forever don't try to guide me to utopia
white plastic gloves removing my blanket
and then she tells me
we shall go

I'm the queen for one day
I'm the queen for one night
I'm the queen of your fate
I will teace you to scream for silence


3. The Claustraphobic Journey

Drowning in my emptiness
Love is no subject if my hate isn't there
Strangled by the curse of loneliness
pleasure's no subject if pain is not there

I'll take your hand and I will help you fight
your bedevilled mind come to my peaceful island...
cry...into deep suffocation...
I want to breathe but my throat has disappeared
I claim to be sane that this is just another dream
but the beast inside my head keeps sending pictures of you dead...
We're on the train of no return no absconding
don't turn your head don't look around
We have to reach the other side
no compunction because of all the thing's I've done
don't you try to fool me
you think that I'm mad
but I'm not all your stupid stories
I'll never trust you what you got
Catch me kill me help me free me fear me avoid me
Please don't listen to my oath
all these familiar faces it's like
I've been here before
Eyes glance at me before they turn around
at first they seemed so nice
smiling at me but I know better now
I'll never get away alive

We're on the train of no return
no absconding
don't turn your head
don't look aroun
we have to reach the other side
no compunction because of all the thing's I've done
don't you try to fool me
you think that I'm mad but I'm not all your stupid storis
I'll never trust you what you got
catch me kill me help me free me fear me avoid me
please don't listen to my oath
all these familiar faces it's like
I've been here before
eyes glance at me before they turn around
at first they seemed so nice
smiling at me but I know better now
I'll never get away alive

We're on the train of no return
no absconding don't turn your head
don't look around
we have to reach the other side
no compunction because of all the thing's I've done
don't you try to fool me
you think that I'm mad but I'm not all your stupid stories
I'll never trust you what yougot
catch me kill me help mefree me fear me avoid me
please don't listen to my oath
Drowning in my emptiness
love is no subject
if my hate is not there
strangled by the curse of loneliness
pleasure's no subject if pain is not there
I'll take your hand and I will help you fight
your bedevilled mind come to my peaceful island...


4. Sound Of Tranquillity Peace?

This silence never touched by noise and we're reaching out
I touch the dark spot of your heart
I bring peace...
Why do you bring me to this lake of sorrow
is this some kind of joke
you'd better speak in difference of all the preachers
I trust you
don't turn my faith into hate
this time I hear terrifying sounds around me
and your confusing words spinning 'round
preach me teach me
do your best to tease me
and I will make you bewail for good
I just want you to find some peace
can't you hear the blackbirds prayer
In the woods of my fantasy all I want is to get some sleep
Thought you'd knew I'm your destiny
It's your life but it's me
deciding couldn't be much...
from this heart she will kill me...
I swear...she will...
This silence never touched by noise and we're reaching out
I touch the dark spot of your heart
I bring peace...
If this is path to eternal peace
I really wish she had brought me here
before and if she is the one
she claims to be
She's like an angel from above
to guide and protect me but as the fairy
you got fairytales how can you expect me
to trust you nurse me curse me
just never try to judge me cause the spell could be yours for good
I will find what you're looking for
I can guide and protect you
just like my dream of reality
How I wish...that it would come true
Now you'll see that we're aimed to be give me trust
I'll give you amity
don't you see it's my devils choice
he will be there and crave to decide
This silence never touched by noise and we're reeaching out
I touch the dark spot of your heart
I bring peace...


5. The Seeker

I'm inside you
I'm within your mind
all around you no peace

I feel him getting closer
nothing to do but wait
just a helpless spectator
as his personality changes
he's here now in my living nightmare
and he's chasing me
I can hear him breathe
I can hear his steps
but he's nowhere near me
and this mist is inside my head makes me personality change
I feel him this is his domain
and I loose my sense of time as faith turns into fear

Fear my being watch my power
hate my existence
hate me
hear my command
obey my word
follow my lead
cause you're all mine...

I keep watching movies in my head
this is madness
the same images over and over again
the pictures of him are repeated
clearer and clearer every time
there are voices in my head
why can't I remember?
he's behind the wheel
now driving me insane...

Fear my being
watch my power
hate my existence
hate me
hear my command
obey my word
follow my lead
cause you're all mine...

I keep watching movies in my head
this is madness
the same images over and over again
the pictures of him are repeated
clearer and clearer every time
there are voices in my head
why can't I remember?
he's behind the wheel
now driving me insane...

Fear my being
watch my power
hate my existence
hate me
hear my command
obey my word
follow my lead
cause you're all mine...

Fire into my eyes
the creatures run through my mind
a bullet right through your head
I tend to leave but I can't
it's to late...
you appear in my hell
you have to leave me or else you'll be me


6. Pray

Black silence in my heart
grey chaos in my head
white loneliness in me
questions tearing me apart
love and hate fighting in me
and it hurt's like I hurt you
like you hurt me
it's all a nightmare that never seems to end
because of the curse in my sleep
grinding bleeding fighting loosing
once again
it's me and I'm falling...down

How I wish I could say
it's over now but I know it's a dream
so I just pray
that this won't tear us apart
that you'll stay
I keep your soul in my heart

War and peace negotiating my soul
going dark my smile
turning pale bedevilled darkness taking over
blinding powers shooting at my soul
it shoots and it shoots me
it's all a disaster killing me
one by one beware of the gun at your head
pulling trigger
hitting falling once again
there's blood all around

How I wish you could say
it's over now but you'll never be free
so I just pray that all your pain disappears
I'll stay until the end of endless...grie!

Eyes of ice tries to steal me
have to find some place above this empty seeds of sadness
makes me wish I'd never been born at all


7. I'm Not Dead

To get away from all my grief and my pain
I know there's only one conclusion
I don't remember how my life used to be
but still I've got the right solution
take my life take my life...
now I'm not dead
suck the life out of me

In the sunrise I see the end approach
I can feel the wind take away my hope
I know your fright
I sense your fear
I'm reading your mind
I'll keep my dreams about the sins in the dept of my darkest soul

Why am I here
I just want it to end
now please won't you help me
turn around
look at my face
I want to leace
now let me fade
erase my existence cause you can't tell me why am I...
not dead suck the life out of me

In my own eyes I can forget my dream
solitude is now just a matter of time
complete confused what does this mean
how can this set me free
because of all the trust I got how can I ever end you...

why do you pray
there's no God
there's no heaven
just hell
so you can open the gate to eternal relief
now all that's left in me
is this my final desire
just fade away
why am I here

to get away from all your grief and your pain
believe there's more then one conclusion
you don't remember how your life used to be
that's why you got the wrong solution

stay...with me
I'm not dead


8. The Moment She Died

Far away from sanity
your screaming gives me pleasure
the only reason I let you live...
is that I want to feel your fright

I fear for my life
I sensed it tolate
the journey has come to an end now

One second away from destruction
I'm filled with equanimity
hate has given me this power
to immortalize your pain

I wish you could see that all that I ever wanted was you to know me

from time to time
I thought that I did
but no I see so clear my devil
is really just you
then when I try to act like you say
it always brings me pain
so I'm sorry but now you're dead

your dream is your truth
and visions of insanity claims you to be your own enemy

your lifeless corpse on the bed in front of me
feel the serenity encircle your mind
close your eyes as I put you to death
the moment is here...

To late to escape to late to forget
I scream as you take my hand...

And as I watch you glance to the sky
it feels like nothing's changed
I'm still alone
I've always been and suddenly as fear comes to mind
she's on the other side
it is the fact the bitch is dead

and though my distant light
I see once again that this one last fright
this final motion makes me realize
the onyl truth and I feel no pain
as the light blows out