Van Roy Asylum

the fear
It has begun
So many things
I haven’t done
Just give me a break
I’m still fucked up
It’s not the end and I confess
It’s problem we have to address
And when I say ‘I do my best’
This essentially means that I’m still depressed

Sick of voices in my head
I hear them laughing
Amount of chemicals is high
Inside my damn own body

Down on floor
I’m barely breathing
Ain't no end
It’s a beginning
I won’t give up
With your support
It’s time to face it now

Searching for light in deep corners of my soul
Drag me back from scary nightmare I've been through
Don't matter how, but I will try to carry on
I know that I'm fighting for better life that I deserve

Oh god, I feel like it's coming again
I'm so fucking tired of this
Will it ever end?!
I'm strong, I will fight
No… I need some help
We haven't met for a while
Hello my friend!
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Тревожные мысли (Anxious Thoughts)
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ЯЛРС (ILDB)
SODA LUV
Start to fall
I close my eyes
Popped a pill
I'm in paradise

Switched off the phone
And shut the door
Too late to miss me
You should have before

Destroy myself
And I don't care
Round and round
Way to nowhere

Fuck you all
I'm gonna die
Fuck you all
I'm way too high

All these memories and regrets
They still keep haunting
Amount of chemicals is high
Inside my damn own body

Searching for light in deep corners of my soul
Drag me back from scary nightmare I've been through
Don't matter how, but I will try to carry on
I know that I'm fighting for better life that I deserve
Down on the floor
I can barely breathe
Ain't no end
It’s time to believe

Searching for light in deep corners of my soul (Corners of my soul)
Drag me back from scary nightmare I've been through (Nightmare I've been through)
Don't matter how, but I will try to carry on (Try to carry on)
I know that I'm fighting for better life that I deserve


Goodbye

I’m calling you in the night
To say some words
I hope the end of us won't be so bright

The pressure is way too high
And I won't wait anymore
It never stops until you cry
So let me cut my ties and close the door

This is drama for me
You're so deep in my head
And I can't see
Like my feelings are dead
It's all in past
I told you babe
It just won't last
Try to escape

Break, it's time to leave this hell
I've never felt so well
It's time to say goodbye to you

Free, I finally feel free
Just healed from the diseasе
It's time to say goodbye to you

I've got thе rain in my heart
You know you're wrong
You're wrong right from the start

Throwing things out of the window
Maybe I'm too weak to react strong
Fighting like a beast for a love that
Falling apart, can I get out?

Weight is getting heavy and I'm trying to stay
Acting like you try to save us but it's end anyway
So I'm leaving now as I warned you
You are alone
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This is drama for me
You're so deep in my head
And I can't see
Like my feelings are dead

It's all in past
I told you babe
It just won't last
Try to escape

Break, it's time to leave this hell
I've never felt so well
It's time to say goodbye to you

Free, I finally feel free
Just healed from the disease
It's time to say goodbye to you

I know that I do not matter
So waste your time on no letters
Alone and never together
How could I be so unclever?

And you won’t change for the better
No matter what I try
You’ve made your bed
Now lie in it
It’s time to say goodbye
For so long
I tried to pretend
It’s so wrong
I think that’s the end


Dark Electro Is Dead

Remember these times we were young and dreamy
Pure energy bleeding through society limits
We built our way to the stage
We didn't know truth
Music is dead
It's corpse is being severely abused

Filthy people wanna listen to meaningless shit
Tons of bands living in poverty and won't ever hit
The road of making music money is blocked by demand
This is the death of industry
This is the end
Distorted tastе of culture
In minds that not aware of
What it means to lovе the music
What it means to love the genre

I express my deepest feelings in the way
I've chosen so hard
What it means to live in doomsday
What it means to be in the dark

Give up on your dreams and years you spent
This is empire of crap
No one is on it's land
You're searching for support?
No one will help
They only criticize your effort
And drag you to hell

Filthy people wanna listen to meaningless shit
Tons of bands living in poverty and won't ever hit
The road of making music money is blocked by demand
This is the death of industry
This is the end

One more fuckin' time!
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Distorted taste of culture
In minds that not aware of
What it means to love the music
What it means to love the genre

I express my deepest feelings in the way
I've chosen so hard
What it means to live in doomsday
What it means to be in the dark


I Am Abuser

Yes, I'm mentally affected
My main threat is how I'm acting
Yesterday I beat you down
Now I tell you to scent out
My entire genital area
My ideas are sick and they various
Suck it off, yes, lick it whole
After that you, whore, step aside
‘Cause we started our way to menticide

Worst is waiting for you here
I've prepared all the tapes
And yeah, I'm playing David Ray
Can't reject me ‘cause of fear
Vivid way of your solution
Just to listen what I fucking say

You don’t know what is hiding inside
(Ugh, fuck!)

I detest this torturing
The rest of future pretty fucked
By the doggish fuss
In my luggage legs of fucking slut
Time was wasted to adjust
In the begs last one body part
Rubbish burnt to dust
With the stench of worthless mutt

Ha!
Beyond the bounds of your decency
But you can't tell what I can see
What I could bear to inflict
Entire damage to the person
I could barely evict from the life
With the knife, body parts that I divide

I have lost the struggle to the demon that's inside my head
Breaking free it's making all my evil spread
Obsecration never helped
So this time you will be dead
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Running from my ghosts
Looking for new home
Thought you'd be the one
Turns out that I was wrong

I'm fed up with your shit
Shut your fucking mouth up
Or get your fucking throat slit
Should have known I'm sick
A man with a twist
Always pissed
(Blegh!)

No, it never crossed my mind why I am so fucking broken
No, I never fucking cared 'bout your stupid fucking problems

(Ayy!)
Why you standing, bitch? Run!
Run!
Run!

I have wasted adolescence
On obsessions, fake expressions
Obsecration never helped
So this time you will be dead
I have lost the struggle to the demon that's inside my head
Obsecration never helped
So this time you will be dead


Kill Yourself III

It's not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might

They figure me a dead motherfucker
But I'm just a motherfucker that wanna be dead
Snow Leopard with the lead in his head, turnin' me into a sweater
Bitches use me as their fucking bedspread
I be the silhouette of a sunset
Smoke a cigarettе while I compress my deprеssion
Stare into the violet fluorescent lights, makes me violent
I'm tryna get the highest I can get before I overdose and die
My mind is nothing but an empty cage, black hole in my chest
Big bang, Yung Plague on the tip of a wave
In my head, I feel like I'm a guest, so I'ma throw it all away
Because when I am dead, I will be nothing decomposin' in a grave
I'm matter, but I don't matter
I can feel my skull shatter from the dull chatter
Brain splattered on the wall
Grey stains won't dissolve, gonna have to paint it all
Always boasting my emotions on how I'm so fucking broken
Think I'm joking when I'm talkin' about blowing my head open
'Til the moment you walk in and find my body motionless
Wrists slit, thoughts of $licky falling in an open pit, shit
Always burn my bridges 'cause I'd rather fall in ditches
If life's a game of inches, then my dick has been the biggest
And my goal's to fuck the world until that motherfucker's twitchin'
Lane switchin', same mission, to die and blame my addiction, bitch

It's not fair, I found love
It made me say that get back
You'll never see daylight
If I'm not strong, it just might


VR-Game

Shameless lies
Poker faces
Hidden motives
Deceive to achieve

They all want to have a piece of me
I've gotta keep on playing to stay in the game

(Oh yeah!)

Wearing masks
Pretend we're friends
Owing favors
Cheat to beat
You're dead meat
They all want to have a piece of me
I've gotta keep on playing to stay in the game
They all just want something to gain
I've gotta keep on playing to stay in the game
(In the game)

(Let’s go!)
(Go!)

Bullshit my way out of anything

They all want to have a piece of me
I've gotta keep on playing to stay in the game
They all just want something to gain
I've gotta keep on playing to stay in the game
(In the game)

(Oh yeah!)


RIP

Say goodbye
My last wish to save you from
Drowning in the dark
I can't let you follow me

I'm a little boy living in a disarray
Every day I search for game that I don't wanna play
Spooky people reading letters when I go through city streets
I don't know them but they look like they have stronger wish to live

Spent my whole life
Thinking what I have to do
Didn't do many things that I
Should have done so many times

Say goodbye
My last wish to save you from
Drowning in the dark
I can't let you follow me

You and I
Are tied with our pain but
Keep your inner spark
Make yourself who you wanna be

All illusions that bring me down
My decision is final now

All illusions that will bring mе down
My decision is embodied now

Say goodbyе
My last wish to save you from
Drowning in the dark
I can't let you follow me

You and I
Are tied with our pain but
Keep your inner spark
Make yourself who you wanna be