Decembre Noir

In the arms of catatonia
With closed eyes
Against waves of insomnia

In this greenhouse of loneliness and clouds

Far away from the sun
Sleepless, day by day
Body and soul
United, grey in grey
Like a helpless lamb
In the arms of catatonia
With closed eyes
Against waves of insomnia

Distant and unreachable
My forsaken earth

Everything is gone
After the vast darkness
Therewith the remembrance
For every soul of the earth
So I carry the last wood
Through the nothingness
That's all what I have left
In this greenhouse
Of loneliness and clouds
Where nothing exists

In this greenhouse
Of loneliness and clouds
Where nothing exists
Except the time

2. Small. Town. Depression

All doors are closed to my regular world outside
There is no difference between day and night
So many things have lost their great meaning
Darkness is the murderer of every single feeling

But some tears are flowing behind a mask of stone
Nothing is what it seems within my broken home
Sometimes looking for a drug to kill the pain
In these bitter moments of endless shame

No one can hear my voice
I never had the choice
There is no helping hard
Yearning for an end

I don't know what I've become
Maybe an ugly remnant from a poor selection
I know there is no light for me
No God, no love and no word of affection
This gloomy house has stolen my smile
I raise the white flag for my own protection

All doors are closed to my regular world outside
There is no difference between day and night
So many things have lost their great meaning
Darkness is the murderer of every single feeling

Small town... small town depression!
Small town... small town depression!

3. Ghost Dirge

There is no paradise upon the other side
By the cold embrace of the narrowness I can't unfurl my light
Like a glowworm in the depth's obscurity
But I am just an absurd teardrop within the face of eternity

I am one with the endless rain
Behind a glass wall of the loneliness
Unable to reach the shining sun
By this cursed place of hopelessness
Sometimes I sing with clouds
About the monotony of the isolation so discouraged and depressed
In the chains of damnation

Ghost dirge!
Ghost dirge!
Ghost dirge!

I am lost between space and time
Upon the quest for absolution
Opressive silence is my only friend
In the care of seclusion

Ghost dirge
The whimper at the playground of eternity
Ghost dirge
So far away from the humanity
Ghost dirge
A serenade of the vast melancholy
Ghost dirge
The great desire to be free

There is no paradise upon the other side
By the cold embrace of the narrowness I can't unfurl my light
Like a glowworm in the depth's obscurity
But I am just an absurd teardrop within the face of eternity

4. The Vast Darkness

Far away from society
The final path
In the secureness of nature
Driven by the human wrath
To the highest mountain
The only place that feels so real
I must reach the goal
Even if I can't see

Dead eyes stare into the void
I am a being without strength
Coldness licks the untempt skin
The great moment of discontent

There is no perspective for my mournful mind
Eternal darkness runs through the veins of time
There is no care to ignore the constant pain
Everything drowns in an ocean of rain

The blood runs fast from the cracks of my broken heart
Every moment of my past tears apart
And there is nothing more to share
Murderous silence speaks everywhere
I count the last seconds in the isolation
On the edge of my desperation
In all me years I've seen the nothingness
I'm the last element of the vast darkness

I do not care what will happen
Behind the labyrinth of my existence
Now I breathe liberty above the clouds
Nevertheless I am just an old blind man with outstretched hands

Today I pray for the last time
Maybe light comes behind the nowhere
All the abyss of all mortal depressions
Just one step further lies an answer

There is no perspective for my mournful mind
Eternal darkness runs through the veins of time
There is no care to ignore the constant pain
Everything drowns in an ocean of rain

The blood runs fast from the cracks of my broken heart
Every moment of my past tears apart
And there is nothing more to share
Murderous silence speaks everywhere
I count the last seconds in the isolation
On the edge of my desperation
In all me years I've seen the nothingness
I'm the last element of the vast darkness

5. Waves Of Insomnia

A modern world has transferred my green paradise
Rapaciousness paints the world in blood and grey
An Eden of tears and dying leaves
A portrait of all living, in a fragile frame of the skeleton trees

I see the last bridges drown
There's no way back home

Like a ghost, I'm sitting here in the dirt
At my lonesome beach of silent desperation
No words can describe this feeling of uselessness
I am breathing the eerie morning air
I'm waiting for salvation

A modern world has transferred my green paradise
Rapaciousness paints the world in blood and grey
An Eden of tears and dying leaves
A portrait of all living, in a fragile frame of the skeleton trees

I see the last bridges drown
There's no way back home
At the pale share of my emptiness

And now I know, a vast darkness is coming for me as well
And now I know, a vast darkness is coming for me...

Where are ethic and moral values hiding?
In these black hours of despair and the unforgiveness
Our daily reality is an unstoppable force of sadness
And we are just the ugly fragments of our own hypocrisy
The heaven is crying for our sins and ignorance
And I feel so ashamed for everything and everyone
Sometimes I dream of a better world
But these waves are getting higher and higher

And all what we've done is coming back to us
In the shape of rising winds, dust and death...

A formation of bleakness is filling the sky
Above my isle of mourning and doubts
I am trying to find the a spark of daylight
In the gloomy wall of the hungry clouds
My hourglass is crying for more sand

6. Distant And Unreachable

All my tears are gone
Only coldness remains
In the shade of my existence
Behind these lifeless walls

Dead flies in rusty corners
This house is lonely
Like my bleeding heart
Between silence and shards

A burnt out candle
The stench of farewell
In empty rooms
'Cause all hope has left the town

Now I will go away forever
To the end of the world
With broken wings
And with a million tears in my hands...

So I walk into the dark
With the city lights in my back
Surrounded by the night
The best time to clean my mind

Along the road to nowhere
With uncertainly in my eyes
Looking for the great answer
Who or what I have become

Along the road to nowhere
With uncertainly in my eyes
To find myself again

In this mental labyrinth of eternal detours
With smiling barred doors
Where fears and depressions lurk
Like hungry wolves for injured prey

'Cause all my tears I've cried
For so much sorrow and pain
Some ends are new beginnings
But the darkness will remain the same

Through the deepest forest of my soul
And the eerie swamp of the fallen ones
Across vast hills of skulls and bones
Death is everywhere
And with the face against the storm
So many miles away from home
Now everything seems so clear
At the point of no return

Upon the battlefield of my dread
Where all the shadows dwell
I'm hearing echoes of the dead
In the forsaken hell
Without tears in mournful eyes
Step by step with feet and hands
Through tragedies of life's demise
Death is the last grain of sand

So I walk into the dark
With the city lights in my back
Surrounded by the night
The best time to clean my mind