40 Below Summer

rate, deviate
Will you medicate, agitate, aggravate

Indecision

They just medicate yourself and just separate yourself
They do medicate yourself and you'll never change yourself, will you ?

Can you fill this deep inside

They just medicate yourself and just separate yourself
They do medicate yourself and you'll never change yourself, will you ?


TAXI CAB CONFESSION

Close your eyes and come with me to a new place
where we are unstoppable
Inhale and let the smoke fill your lungs and breath the impossible
And as we follow these foot prints a new world will begin
Can you feel it my brother-it's time to repent
Now can I get an amen! Why don't you come and ride with me
I can feel your pain, If you let me I'll save your soul
I'll take you away if you're with me
I'll make you whole amen
Now can I get an amen
And as we slowly separate from our worldy desires
we think the unthinkable
And we will swim together through the fire for we are unsinkable
And if you follow this path a new life will begin
Can you hear it my children it's time to confess
now, can I get an amen?
Confess, confess, digest and you will be saved by this


RAIN

It's cold it's hard and I'm locked inside this
I've gone too far I can't rectify this
I walk away falling into
It's such a shame how I'll miss you
I feel shot can you reach me
You cannot bring me back
And I'll always sink into nothing
And I'm on my knees again
And I can't believe that it's always
Under my skin
Don't leave me out, leave me hanging
Don't keep me down, down and dragging
You're so sure that I won't splinter
You're so good, you're so good
Shift time to come back in line
cause when I tried to embrace my life
Gonna dry up was it something you're fed
Got you sickened was it something I said
All it did was rain


BREATHLESS

You believe every word I say and always took the time to understand
You took my breath away, is that you slipping right through my hands
Just like a shooting star falling from the sky
I wait for you to land
Fly away don't shut me out, cause I can't be without you
Run away come with me, cause I can't be without you
When I wake up everyday
I need to know you're not so far away
Be without you, open your eyes and open your life


BETTER LIFE

Take that weight off your shoulders
It's kinda hard when it keeps getting colder inside
There's no heart just a place where the souls been all torn apart
No chance for repentence the world is a prison and life is a sentence
I can't redefine the surroundings that hound me and keep me denied
This pain's just a part of me and it's hard to breathe
I'm always here on the outside
It all seems so far away there's gotta be a better life
In this world made of plastic
I can bend and stretch like elastic
No sign of the sun it's just a barrel a handle gun
Unwhole in this madness no redemption I'm drowning in sadness
Alone crucified by the pain and the sorrow that keeps me alive
I don't want to feel this, I can't hope to heal this,
I can't cope with everything inside


MONDAY SONG

Life is lost for me, and everything I dream
Picture me above the sky on this half day closing
Ride the wave say goodnight drifting slowly
I see the world in your eyes it's relentless
When I feel the burn in my life God please end this
It's not so easy can you fix me and wipe it all away
Wipe it all away, you wash it all away
Picture me inside the sun, I'm dried and burning
As I sink like a stone the world keeps turning
I'll hold you close to myself you complete me
A part of my life I can't fill, please release me now
It's not so easy, and wipe it all away, can you fix me, and wipe it all away
So sadistic, and wipe it all away, how you'd bleed me, and wash it all away
Follow a heart in vain you follow and start again
Life is lost for me now


F.E.

Set me off you can calculate pushing me
Tormented by the agony of everyday
Died, dissolve, descend I'm by myself I'm by myself
Again! Don't you touch me
Swallow me, swallow me up, and take me now out of my inside
Set me free, I've had enough, and let me out of this abyss right now
And as this life defeats me I need to simplify
And everything that beats me I need to purify
Fuck you all, fuck everyone and everything
You don't know me and you wouldn't want to anyway
Force into the end I fucked myself I fucked myself
Again, I am nothing, again, fuck everything
Suffer, we will inside


AWAKENING

I can't believe it's so hollow when im here in this hole
I can't conceive this time is borrowed now
I can't go on anymore
Turn on the lights, now wake me up!
Is there a way to see tomorrow
Is there a picture left to frame
Is there a flower in your garden
Or on the headstone of your grave
I can't erase all of the sorrow the past is gone
But I can change and make tomorrow a vision now
I can go on
Give me a sign and wake me up
Is there a way to see tomorrow
Is there a picture left to frame
Is there a flower in your garden
Or on the headstone of your grave
closing my eyes,now wake me up
Is there a way to see tomorrow
Is there a picture left to frame
Is there a flower in your garden
Or on the headstone of your grave


ALIENATION

What it cost me to assimilate myself
It engulfed me and turned me into someone else
It is crashing right into your face
Everlasting it seems to suffer in this
Please release me, please release me
Nothing I can do will change my life
Everything I had was never mine to keep inside
If I could give myself a new face
Then maybe I could join the human race
Time has frozen for me the walls are closing in
I am sinking in greed and trapped inside my skin
I am running away and getting nowhere fast
I am thinking how long can this last
Erase me, please erase me
And I rise above it all
And I run away


A SEASON IN HELL

This, this a dark this is a place I can't escape would you leave me here
Lying in wait hanging like baits strangled by fate would you even care
This is my curse this is my life this is my Christ my crow of thorns
This is the way the way that I die, die and be reborn
Dying to touch you I need you I love you
to make me to mold me to break me again
I can't deny that I'm hurting inside as
I'm pulling you close you push me away
As I look just to find my existence and open my eyes
I can't breath as you push me aside
Now I feel that it's time to die as I realize how you let me believe in a lie
As i struggle with both hands and
I try to arise from the sadness inside of myself
I cannot breath I'm burning alive cause I've lived through a season in hell
Look, look at my face shaded in gray wasting away I'm almost gone
I can replace this empty space you left me all alone
Why can't you see me I'm hanging here bleeding
it's tortured and twisting my insides apart,
laughing and crying as ever things dying in me
and it's breaking my heart
Save me now
I'm in the shower of your love
Can you feel your life pass you by
Can you see the sun in the sky
Life is calling you again, again
Can you feel the end?