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Ayreon
« The Human Equation »
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| Disc 1
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| | 1 | Day One: Vigil 01:33
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| | 2 | Day Two: Isolation 08:42
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| | 3 | Day Three: Pain 04:59
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| | 4 | Day Four: Mystery 05:37
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| | 5 | Day Five: Voices 07:10
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| | 6 | Day Six: Childhood 05:05
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| | 7 | Day Seven: Hope 02:47
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| | 8 | Day Eight: School 04:23
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| | 9 | Day Nine: Playground 02:16
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| | 10 | Day Ten: Memories 03:57
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| | 11 | Day Eleven: Love 04:18
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| | Disc 2
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| | 1 | Day Twelve: Trauma 09:54
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| | 2 | Day Thirteen: Sign 04:47
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| | 3 | Day Fourteen: Pride 04:43
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| | 4 | Day Fifteen: Betrayal 05:24
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| | 5 | Day Sixteen: Loser 04:47
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| | 6 | Day Seventeen: Accident? 05:42
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| | 7 | Day Eighteen: Realization 04:31
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| | 8 | Day Nineteen: Disclosure 04:43
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| | 9 | Day Twenty: Confrontation 07:03
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| | Total playing time 01:42:21 |
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All instruments by Arjen Anthony Lucassen AND the following guests:
:: Vocals
Mikael Еkerfeldt (Opeth) as Fear
Mike Baker (Shadow Gallery) as Father
Marcela Bovio (Elfonia) as Wife
Eric Clayton (Saviour Machine) as Reason
Magnus Ekwall (The Quill) as Pride
Heather Findlay (Mostly Autumn) as Love
Devon Graves (Dead Soul Tribe, Aslan) as Agony
Irene Jansen (Karma) as Passion
James LaBrie (Dream Theater, Mullmuzzler) as Me
Devin Townsend (Strapping Young Lad, The Devin Townsend Band) as Rage
Arjen Lucassen (Duh...) as Best Friend
:: Keyboards
Ken Hensley (Uriah Heep)
Martin Orford (IQ)
Joost van den Broek (Sun Caged)
Oliver Wakeman
:: Drums, Percussion
Ed Warby (Gorefest)
::Acoustic instruments
Robert Baba (Violin)
Jeroen Goossens (Flute)
Marieke van der Heyden (Cello)
John McManus (Flute, Whistle) |
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All artists recorded at the Electric castle
except:
Ed Warby - Excess Studios, Rotterdam, The
Netherlands by A. Lucassen and Hans Pieters,
Devin Townsend - The DevLab, Vancouver, Canada by
Dan Kearley,
Mike Baker - 9th Street Studios, Allentown, PA,
USA by Gary Wehrkamp and Alan J. Verone,
Joost van der Boek - Klop Baroque Keyboard
Instruments, Garderen, The Netherlands by Andreas
Grotenhoff,
John McManus, Oliver Wakeman, Martin Orford and
Ken Hensley recorded their parts at their own
studio.
Arjen's bass guitar recording engineered by Pieter
kop at The Electric Castle.
Recorded, produced and mixed by Arjen Lucassen at
The Electric Castle.
Mastered by Pieter Kop at Sync Music Productions.
Transcriptions by Boudewijn Bonebakker, Peter
daltrey as 'Forever', Ywette Boertje as the
'hospital voice', Meri Pitkanen as 'the sexy
cough'.
All songs written and composed by A.A. Lucassen
except:
Devin Townsend wrote lyrics for "Rage" on Days
3,8,16,
Heather Findlay wrote lyrics for "Love" on Day 13,
Devon Graves wrote lyrics for "Agony" on day 17.
Design:
Cover painting by Jef Bertels.
Layout and booklet by Mattias Noren.
Images for days 6,7,11,12 photographed by Jolanda
Verduijn.
Boy on Day 6: Luc Verstralen.
All artists photographs by Ywette Boertje except
Devin Townsend and Mike Baker. |
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| 1. Day One: Vigil
[Best Friend] Did he open up his eyes?
Did he try to touch my hand
Or is my mind playing tricks on me...
Do you think he hears us cry?
Does he understand
We are here by his side
[Wife] Why are you so concerned?
Do you really care
Or do you feel responsible?
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«Я не могу пошевелить ни клеточкой своего обездвиженного тела. Органы чувств отказываются говорить. Я ощущаю лишь одно. Я один. Кто я, одиночка в этом неизвестном месте? И есть ли место? Я ничего не помню. Не чувствую…
Сладкоголосый спокойный страх вселяет панику в и без того напуганный разум…».
Есть на свете творцы, двигающие вперед целые жанры и культуры. Они способны используя старые приемы создавать нечто поистине новое. Они способны наполнить, казалось бы, никчемную идею силой и монументальностью. Они способны создать гармонию даже в хаотическом наборе слов и звуков, голосов и инструментов. Арьен Энтони Лукассен (Arjen Anthony Lucassen) - мастер музыкальных космоопер и путешествий во времени. Но доказал он свою причастность к вышеописанным творцам в самой необычной работе своего проекта Ayreon. Он поведал историю молодого человека, попавшего в автокатастрофу. И именно ему, обездвиженному и окутанному состоянием комы, предстоит убедиться в равенстве всех людей…
«Боль, безграничная и такая реальная. Не физическая, но… другая. Нет избавления от боли. А начало? От осознания ее непонимания, она становится лишь сильнее. И ярость. Из-за боли, из-за незнания…
Но, я уже помню. Будто ярость имеет память. Я помню, чьи это голоса. Голоса, что слышатся оттуда, снаружи. Я не один…».
Красивой идее – красивое исполнение. Как всегда, следуя принципу не скупиться на инструментарий, Лукассен создает нечто трудноопределимое по стилю. В «The Human Equation» есть буквально все. Прог, фольк, психоделия. Классические хард-роковые гитарные структуры граничат с индастриальными риффами. Клавишные соло, одно из которых сыграно самим Кеном Хенсли (Ken Hensley), в самых неожиданных моментах переходят в гитарные извороты самого Арьена. А какое количество прекрасных партий флейты и более экзотических духовых инструментов (вроде бас-флейты или диджериду) представлено на альбоме – не счесть. За ударные партии, как уже на протяжении многих лет отвечает Эд Уорби (Ed Warby). Он показывает настоящую death-металическую технику игры и каким-то чудом вписывает ее в гораздо менее тяжелый саунд альбома. Иными словами, музыкально альбом очень интересен. А по разнообразию ходов способен дать фору иному творению самого автора…
«Я умер? Нет, друг, я жив. Услышь меня. Друг. Не отец, а друг. Единственный, кто есть у меня, после смерти матери. Больше никого. Дом, школа, личная жизнь. Это все лишь топливо для ярости. Снова одна ярость при мысли о них. Но не о друге. Друг, вернись ко мне…».
Для воплощения в музыке задуманной сюжетной линии голландцем было приглашено несколько известных и не очень вокалистов. Среди них как весьма известные в прогрессивных кругах Девон Грейвс (Devon Graves aka Buddy Lackey), Джеймс Ля Бри (James LaBrie) и Майк Бейкер (Mike Baker), так и представители экстремальной сцены вроде Микаэля Окерфельдта (Mikael Akerfeldt) и Девина Таунсенда (Devin Townsend). Главная особенность вокальной части альбома в том, что все партии представляют собой нечто вроде театральных ролей. Эта деталь сильно меняет восприятие «The Human Equation» – целые диалоги и монологи проходят через уши слушателя. А интересный смысл некоторых из ролей может сильно удивить – большинство из действующих лиц пьесы – не люди, а эмоции в голове у пострадавшего! Боль, страх, любовь, страсть, они проявляются в ответ на все проясняющиеся после амнезии воспоминания, которым в этом помогают посетители больного: его жена, лучший друг и отец…
Лукассен в который раз продемонстрировал свое чутье по части подбора вокалистов – каждому из них он отвел особое место в сюжете, на котором тот мастерски себя реализует. Сам Арьен тоже исполнил одну из главных ролей и выполнил это блестяще, даже, несмотря на то, что никогда не считал себя толковым певцом.
Помимо звезд, блистательно себя показала певица Марчела Бовио (Marcela Bovio). Для нее мастер впоследствии создал группу Stream оf Passion, что лишний раз подтверждает ее состоятельность как вокалистки.
«Помню ли я те дни? Да, счастливейшие из дней не забыть. Ни страха, ни боли, лишь я и верный друг. Счастье…
Стоп. Есть еще что-то, позже. Совсем иное и… совсем к другому человеку. Ночь. Автомобиль. Встреча. Страсть. Любовь. Она…
И я слышу ее. Она снаружи…».
Чего у Лукассена не отнять, так это его фирменного чувства мелодики и того, что на английском языке зовется «songwriting». Это звучит невероятно, но среди двадцати треков нет ни одного по-настоящему проходного. Каждая композиция является самой хитовостью в чистом виде. Причем, это касается как стильных боевиков, так и проникновенных баллад и неких вещей из разряда «ни то, ни то». Здесь не взято за основу объединение песен в один концептуальный эпик, и это пошло только на пользу. Альбом одновременно и монолитен, и разнообразен. Он позволяет слушать себя как целиком, так и выборочно по песням. «The Human Equation» – пример удивительного компромисса между двумя противоположными концепциями, и этот баланс соблюдается в нем идеально.
«Гордость. Я горд собой. Гордость переполняет всю мою сущность. Счастье рядом. Оно мое. Ничто его не отнимет. И никто…
Никто, кроме самых близких. Но за что? Возможно ли такое? Кто угодно, но только не он! И не она. И не вместе…
Гордость смеется, боль наступает. Не прощу предательства. Ни его, ни ее. Не прощу их…».
Альбом буквально создан, чтобы понравится всем. Атмосфера, заимствованная из предыдущих работ Ayreon, двух частей «The Universal Migrator», все еще имеет место. Она, как ни удивительно, прижилась и в эпической космоопере, и в странствии по эмоциям лежащего в коме человека. В то же время, упомянутые мной выше нетрадиционные инструменты добавляют экзотики в некоторые композиции. Вроде разудалой Alice Cooper-style песни «Loser», в которой применены басовые духовые и орган-хаммонд. Она, а еще, пожалуй, песни «Love» и «School» – самые запоминающиеся на альбоме. Для любителей длинных и сложных вещей, предусмотрены «Isolation» и «Trauma», а также слитая практически воедино концовка второго диска – «дни» с 17 по 20 слушаются буквально на одном дыхании. До конца же заполняют калейдоскоп легкомысленная песенка «Hope» и очень быстрая и техничная «Pride».
«Отец. Сколько лет прошло? Все это годы презрения. Презрения к единственному сыну. Прекрати все это. Ты это можешь сделать…
- Неудачник!
- Я не такой как ты, слышишь! И никогда таким не буду. Тобой.
- Неудачник!
- Это всего лишь ошибка. Единственная. Она не повторится! Никогда! Я не допущу. Никогда…
- Неудачник!!!
- НИКОГДА!!!».
О чем этот разнообразный и сложный альбом, спросите вы? Он сразу обо всем. Обо всем, с чем мы связаны, чем занимаемся. О наших чувствах, о наших мыслях. О верной дружбе, о настоящей любви. О равенстве людей, о справедливости. Принято считать, что подобным вещам учат лишь книги или кино, но оказывается, на это способна и музыка. По-своему, по-особому, она проникает сразу в душу, очищая ее и меняя ее к лучшему. Справедливо, что не каждому творцу и не в каждом творении удается успешная реализация подобной цели. Но одно из них перед вами, имя ему «The Human Equation». После долгого странствия по космическим просторам, Арьен Лукассен снизошел на грешную землю, но и на ней его фантастический талант сумел обнаружить целую Вселенную. И Вселенная эта – человек…
«Случайность? Нет. Слишком много боли, страха, злости. Их не должно быть. Я жив, и это тоже не случайно. Я должен. Должен сделать все, что не сделал. Должен простить…
- Мой друг, я надеюсь, ты слышишь меня. И надеюсь, ты веришь мне. Каждый день с того момента я сожалел. Она сожалела. Она любит тебя. И ей одиноко без тебя. Нам одиноко без тебя. Мне одиноко…
- Да, друг мой. Прости меня за гордость, что не дала мне простить тебя. Мне было одиноко без тебя. Я иду к тебе. Я жив…
- Моя любовь, без тебя жизнь хуже смерти. Я люблю только тебя. Он это знает. И ему одиноко без тебя. Нам одиноко без тебя. Мне одиноко…
- Да, любовь моя. Я любил только тебя, и люблю до сих пор. Я тебя не оставлю. Мне было одиноко без вас. Без тебя. Я иду к тебе. Я жив…
Я ЖИВ!..». |
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В первый раз новое концептуальное (а как же иначе?) творение Арьена Люкассена я прослушала за ужином. «Что ж, - подумала я, - типичный Люкассен: те же мощные гитары, те же очень характерные аналоговые клавишные, такое же обилие приглашенных суперзвезд (Джеймс ЛяБри из Dream Theater, Девин Таунсенд, Микаэль Аккерфельдт из Opeth и многие другие) на вокале. Ладно, альбом вполне заслуживает семерки, все-таки Арьен халтуры не делает». Но есть у меня привычка: перед рецензированием прослушивать диски как минимум дважды. И вот я удобно уселась в трамвае, надела наушники, взяла в руки буклет… Когда я приехала на работу, начальник спросил меня, не стоит ли мне вернуться домой – полагаю, у меня был вид человека, который только что увидел привидение. Да так почти и было – я была ТАМ. Там, откуда почти никогда не возвращаются. До вторичного прослушивания “The Human Equation” я наивно полагала, что меня уже ничто в музыке не может потрясти до глубины души. Как же я ошиблась! Если попытаться абстрагироваться от текстов, может, “The Human Equation” и не радикально отличается от своих предшественников, но в целом… он вынимает из тебя душу, выворачивает ее и кладет обратно. Двадцать песен – двадцать дней путешествия по закоулкам сознания, двадцать ступеней осознания всего, что сделал и переоценки всей жизни. Скажете, тема не нова? Может быть, но мастерство настоящего артиста и заключается в том, чтобы самые привычные вещи передать так, чтобы комок в горле стоял. Арьену это вполне удалось – слушая диск, ты сам проходишь по грани своего собственного сознания. Поэтому, если вы слушаете музыку душой, а не умом, искренне НЕ рекомендую прослушивать оба диска подряд (лучше сделайте перерыв!), а то это может непредсказуемо отразиться на вашей психике. Или, может, вы готовы заглянуть в самые темные уголки своей души? |
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Вот так, без лишнего шума и пыли, композитор, музыкант и чародей Арьен Люкассен соорудил один из столпов современного прогрессивного рока. Этот альбом относится к такому редкому случаю, когда понимаешь,что имеешь дело с гениальным при первых же минутах прослушивания. "The Human Equation" собрал в себе бездонное количество музыкальных идей. Абсолютно продуманое, выстроеное "от и до", цельное произведение, настоящая рок-опера (причём именно РОК, без симфонических наворотов) с одиннадцатью персонажами. Состав исполнителей ролей впечатляет. В музыке присутсвуют фолковые кельтские мотивы (очень много), космическое звучание синтезаторов, а, например, слушая "Day Fourteen: Pride", создаётся ощущение будто это песня Dream Theater года эдак 1994-го (похожа на "Caught In A Web" и "Lie"), но вступающая в середине композиции флейта спутывает все карты! И таких оригинальных, приятных "ловушек" для слушателя на альбоме масса. В "Day Nineteen: Disclosure" очень заметно битловское влияние. Под занавес - умопомрачительный финал, как в музыкальном (настоящее металическое стаккато с многоголосием, на фоне инфернального гроулинга Микаэля Акерфельдта), так и в смысловом плане. Тема призведения проста и близка, наверное, каждому - межчеловеческих отношений, комплексов, взрощеных в нас нашими же родными, тема зла, которое мы причиняем самым близким нам людям, которое, словно бумеранг, возвращается к нам. |
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Первоначально в новом двойном альбоме Ayreon меня заинтересовало количество воклистов в проекте 12 (из них 3 девушки). Прослушав несколько треков в наушниках, дело было в музыкальном магазине, мне захотелось несмотря ни на что прослушать весь альбом.
Теперь, когда купив диски, я полностью послушал их уже раз 5 и мне хочется слушать еще, я понимаю что заинтересовало меня первоначально. Музыка записана на высочайшем уровне, т.е. удовольствие доставляет само звучание пластинки на хорошей технике. Кристально чистые верхи и глубочайший басс, огромное количество инструментов и электронных семплоов. Потрясающий вокал. Многоголосье, причем удивительное по красоте. Некоторые треки не имеют с металлом ничего общего, т.е. термин "прогрессив метал" вполне оправдан, очень сложная и интересная музыка, временами переходящая в прог. рок или даже арт-рок, хотя и ортодоксального металла в пластинке много.
Теперь о готике (куда тут без нее). Собственно альбом представляет собой 20 дней сложных внутренних переживаний человека попавшего в кому в результате автокатастрофы. История изложена в лицах, т.е. кроме самого потерпевшого участвуют такие персонажи как (жена, друг, боль, любовь, агония, гордость) под партию каждого из них выделен отдельный вокалист. Один день соответствует каждому треку. Диски представляют собой ораторию изложенную в лицах, т.е. эффект от прослушивания потресающий по своей художественной силе. Содержание текстов вполне осмысленно и интересно. Рекомендуется к прослушиванию всем без исключения. Я думаю, это реальный шедевр. |
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Won't you try to clear the air?
Let your conscience be your guide...
2. Day Two: Isolation
[Me] I can't move, I can't feel my body
I don't remember anything
What place is this...how did I get here?
I don't understand, what's happening...
Am I alone?
[Fear] You've been deserted, everyone has left you
You know it's always been that way
Those frantic years, the people you've neglected
Now the time has come to pay
You're alone
No one here is dancing to your tune
[Me] Is this a dream or is it real?
[Reason] Sometimes the dream becomes reality
[Me] But I don't know what to feel
[Reason] Then I will guide you through this haze
[Me] But who are you, why are you here?
[Reason] I am you and you are all of us
[Me] I can't think, my mind ain't clear
[Reason] Then I will free you from this maze
[Passion] Can't you feel it burn
Deep down inside?
Won't you ever learn
Don't try to hide
Can't you feel that fire?
Scorching you soul?
A wounded man's desire
Out of control
[Pride] I can't believe you're giving up
That's not your way
I can't believe you'd pass the chance to make them pay
You always had complete control
Never thinking twice
You always called the shots, a heart as cold as ice
[Me] You are delusions of my mind
[Reason] And so we are, we're all a part of you
[Me] Am I a part of some design?
[Reason] The one design is in your head
[Me] How can it be you look so real...
[Reason] We are as real as you imagine us
[Me] I can touch you, I can feel...
[Reason] Then take my hand and follow me
[Passion] Can't you feel it burn
Deep down inside?
Won't you ever learn
Don't try to hide
Can't you feel that fire?
Scorching you soul?
A wounded man's desire
Out of control
[Pride] I can't believe you're giving up
That's not your way
I can't believe you'd pass the chance to make them pay
You always had complete control
Never thinking twice
You always called the shots, a heart as cold as ice
[Love] Close your eyes, listen to your heart beat
Surrender to its soothing pulse
Silence the cries, gentle and carefree
Good or bad, true or false...
You're not alone
You'll find me here whenever they oppose you
I am the strongest of them all
No need to fear these feelings that enclose you
I'm here to catch you when you fall
You're not alone
I am here dancing to your tune
[Passion] Can't you feel it burn
Deep down inside?
Won't you ever learn
Don't try to hide
Can't you feel that fire?
Scorching you soul?
A wounded man's desire
Out of control
[Pride] I can't believe you're giving up
That's not your way
I can't believe you'd pass the chance to make them pay
You always had complete control
Never thinking twice
You always called the shots, a heart as cold as ice
3. Day Three: Pain
[Agony] I am pain
I am real. I'm not a dream
I'm the chain around your neck as you scream
Surrender now
You can't beat death at his ruthless game
Make your bow
Hang your head in shame
[Me] I can't believe there is no way out...
[Agony] You'll find you are wrong
[Me] You fill me with doubt...
[Agony] You were never that strong
[Agony] I am pain
I am the wound that never heals
It's all in vain
No compromise, no deals...
[Me] I can't believe this is the end
[Agony] It's written in stone
[Me] Where are my friends?
[Agony] You have always been alone!
[Rage] (Pain!) We lead
We hide as the pain leaves the rage inside
(Motion personified alpha)
Being here, welcomed by...a sane mind
A travelled lie
[Agony] I am pain
I am the end, I am your wraith
Nothing remains
I'm the loss of hope and faith
[Me] I can't believe there is no way out...
[Agony] You'll I find you are wrong
[Me] You fill me with doubt...
[Agony] You were never that strong
[Rage] We lead, we hide as the pain leaves the rage inside
(Motion personified alpha)
Being here, welcomed by...a sane mind
A travelled lie
All the time, I had waited with rage
All the time, I was promised my salvation
[Love] I can't accept this, we will find a way
Out of this cesspool of doom and dismay
Beyond this dejection there's beauty and grace
A glorious future we long to embrace
[Rage] (Pain!) All the time, I have waited with rage
(Motion personified alpha)
All the time, I was promised my salvation
4. Day Four: Mystery
[Best Friend] No, I can't seem to figure out what happened
On the brightest hour of day, no car in sight
No, I can't seem to accept these strange conditions
No matter what they say, it doesn't feel right
[Wife] Do you think he's seen it?
[Best Friend] I don't think he did
[Wife] Do you think he knows it?
[Best Friend] I don't think he knows
[Wife] Do you think he's been there?
[Best Friend] I don't think he was
[Wife] Do you think he'll die?
[Best Friend] I don't think he will
[Wife] No, could it have been a moment of distraction?
A creature on the road, a plane in the air...
[Best Friend] Do you think he's seen it?
[Wife] I don't think he did
[Best Friend] Do you think he knows it?
[Wife] I don't think he knows
[Best Friend] Do you think he's been there?
[Wife] I don't think he was
[Best Friend] Do you think he'll die?
[Wife] I don't think he will
[Wife and Best Friend] No, will we ever understand what happened
Will the mystery be unveiled, or die with him?
[Best Friend] Do you think he's seen it?
[Wife] I don't think he did
[Best Friend] Do you think he knows it?
[Wife] I don't think he knows
[Best Friend] Do you think he's been there?
[Wife] I don't think he was
[Best Friend] Do you think he'll die?
[Wife] I don't think he will
[Passion] Do you think you've seen it?
[Me] I don't think I did
[Passion] Do you think you know it?
[Me] I don't think I know
[Passion] Do you think you've been there?
[Me] I don't think I was
[Passion] Do you think you'll die?
[Me] I don't know!
5. Day Five: Voices
[Pride] I hear voices, they are talking about you
Can you hear them, do you know what they mean?
Try to remember, what have you been through?
What do you know and what have you seen?
I can read the thoughts they're conveying
So intense, can you feel them too?
I can't believe it's true what they're saying
You're far too strong, it couldn't happen to you
[Me] But what if there's truth in the words that they speak?
What do they signify?
[Pride] You worry too much
[Me] And what are the questions to answers I seek
What will they clarify?
[Pride] Yeah, you're losing your touch
[Me] Help me out, this means nothing to me...
[Reason] Who are these voices, where do they come from?
Should we try to understand?
Mere illusions, hallucinations?
They might be vital, to our plan
[Love] They sound familiar, they must be here to help you
All this confusion's tearing you apart
You must be patient, time is the healer
Open up and let them in your heart
[Fear] Their guilty sighs
I think you understand it all
You were afraid to live, now you're afraid to die...
You fool yourself
You rose so high, you were bound to fall
Longing for the truth, you lived a lie...
[Reason] I am convinced now, they are essential
They must be our way out of here
[Love] Listen and learn, let your heart lead you
And you will find the solution's near
[Fear] Their guilty signs
I think you understand it all
Long for the truth, you lived a lie...
[Pride] If they are right, we'll fight for survival
Look to the future, but learn from the past
Confront the danger; face up to your rival
Take a deep breath, we have to move fast
[Me] I think there is truth in the words that they speak
What do they signify?
[Pride] You worry way too much
[Me] I will find the answers to questions I seek
What will they clarify?
[Pride] You're losing your touch
[Me] Help me out, this means nothing to me...
6. Day Six: Childhood
[Agony] You're alone in your bedroom
Hiding from the world, staring at the ceiling
[Me] Mother said 'he'll be home soon'
But he never was, and I knew how she was feeling
[Fear] You always let him down; 'you'd never be like him'
He'd always break you, never let you win
No matter what you said, he'd always disagree
You swore that one day you would be
better than him...one day you'd win
[Agony] You're hiding out in the cellar
Aching and ashamed, covering up the bruises
[Me] And then he would tell her
How I tripped and hurt my head, how I'd always be a loser
[Fear] You always let him down; 'you'd never be like him'
He'd always break you, never let you win
No matter what you said, he'd always disagree
You swore that one day you would be
better than him...one day you'd win
[Agony] You're all alone in your bedroom
How could you learn to care, when nobody cares for you
[Me] Mother said he'd be home soon
But he never came, as for me...he didn't have to...
7. Day Seven: Hope
[Best Friend] Let me take you back
To the time when we were chasing all the girls
Two maniacs
Indulging in the pleasures of this world
So much to see, so much to live for
Questions to answer, places to go
So much to be, so much to care for
Deep down inside I think you know
You are free...come back to me!
Look ahead and see
There are still so many borders we could cross
Just you and me
Making up for all the time that we have lost
[Best Friend] So much to see
[Me] He may be right
[Best Friend] so much to live for
[Me] I've got to fight
[Best Friend] Questions to answer
[Me] I will pull through
[Best Friend] places to go
[Me] take me with you
[Best Friend] So much to be
[Me] I will not break
[Best Friend] so much to care for
[Me] I must awake
[Best Friend] Deep down inside I think you know
[Me] I think I know
[Best Friend] You are free
[Me] I am free
[Best Friend] Come back to me!
[Best Friend] Aaaah, aaaah come back to me
[Me] There's no way out, my whole world is black!
[Best Friend] Aaaah, aaaah come back to me
[Me] I try to shout, something's holding me back!
8. Day Eight: School
[Fear] It's time to leave your sheltered cage
Face you deepest fears
The world is against you
You're fighting back the tears
[Me] All the kids were watching me
I felt very small
I could hear the laughter
As I stumbled down the hall
[Rage] (human) Seeking to find
deep in the trauma as it leaves you behind
(human) Bleeding it gone
into the profit of the competition
(human) Loving today,
all of the feelings are they going away
(human) Ending it now,
I'd rather hear about the where and the how
[Agony] The bigger boys they beat you up
Out here you cannot hide
No friends to help you
No father at your side
[Me] I swore that I'd get back at them
But I was just a kid
One day I'd show them
I wouldn't rest until I did
[Rage] (human) Seeking to find
deep in the trauma as it leaves you behind
(human) Bleeding it gone
into the profit of the competition
(human) Loving today,
all of the feelings are they going away
(human) Ending it now,
I'd rather hear about the where and the how
[Pride] You've got to prove you are not like the rest
[Reason] There's no need if you know you're the best
[Pride] That's not enough, let the other kids know
[Reason] What's the use, go with the flow
[Pride] Be a man, give into hate
[Reason] You better learn to communicate
[Pride] Better to learn to protect yourself
[Reason] That's not the way to get out of this hell
[Pride] See that kid, watch the smile on his face
[Reason] He's just like you, feeling out of place
[Pride] Well I don't care, let's show him who's boss
[Reason] That's not the way to get your message across
[Pride] Be a man, give into hate
[Reason] You better learn to communicate
[Pride] Better to learn to protect yourself
[Reason] That's not the way to get out of this hell
[Passion] Don't rack your brain, let it all go
Savour the moment and feel your blood flow
[Me] Then I got back at them
Still acting like a kid
Then I showed them
But when I had I could not quit...
[Rage] (human) Seeking to find
deep in the trauma as it leaves you behind
(human) Bleeding it gone into the
profit of the competition
(human) Loving today,
all of the feelings are they going away
(human) Ending it now,
I'd rather hear about the where and the how
9. Day Nine: Playground
[Instrumental]
10. Day Ten: Memories
[Best Friend] It's been 10 days
It shouldn't last this long
The doctors' mystified
Nothing's physically wrong...
[Wife] But maybe inside his head
He's struggling to survive
Would it help if we talked to him?
Bring him back to life...
[Best Friend and Pride] Do you remember that time
We were showing off our brand new flashy bikes
[Wife and Love] You looked so fine
Until you both fell over and then started to cry!
[Best Friend and Pride] Do you recall that day
Fearlessly we climbed the highest tower
[Wife and Love] Then you became afraid
Too scared to climb down you stayed up there for hours!
[Best Friend and Pride] Do you remember that time?
[Wife and Love] Do you recall that day?
[Wife and Love] Do remember that time
Alone at last, naked by the fire
[Best Friend and Pride] Then all your friends came by,
They rushed in the room and you had no time to hide
[Wife and Love] Do you recall that day,
You proposed to me fell down to your knee
[Best Friend and Pride] You didn't know what to say,
So she knelt down to for she thought you'd lost your keys!
[Wife and Love] Do you remember that time?
[Best Friend and Pride] Do you recall that day?
[Passion] Can you see her light
Shining through the black
She's reaching out to you
What's holding you back?
[Reason] Can you feel her warmth
Glowing on your skin
Don't repress the memories
Let them all in...
11. Day Eleven: Love
[Me] Friday night, I had a few
There she was, out of the blue
Thunderstruck, nailed to the floor
I couldn't move, couldn't talk...anymore
[Love] Of all these guys it's you she desires
Secretly her heart is on fire
Waiting for you to ask her to dance
Go ahead, make your move...now's your chance
[Passion] Do it right, do it right, we ain't got all night
Do it now, do it now, I think you know how
[Pride] Let it out, let it out, now don't mess about
Let her in, let her in, let the party begin!
[Me] There I was, nervous and shy
Struck with awe as I caught her eye
I mustered up courage and walked her way
Figuring out what to do...what to say
[Love] Her heart sings as she sees you come near
The music fades, the crowd disappears
She weeps in silence as you pass her by
And she's wondering why...oh why
[Passion] Do it right, do it right, we ain't got all night
Do it now, do it now, I think you know how
[Pride] Let it out, let it out, now don't mess about
Let her in, let her in, let the party begin!
[Agony] Remember your father, well you're just like him
Nothing but violence and fury within
Remember your mother, so lonely and sad
This will be her fate if you treat her as bad
[Fear] You're afraid she might turn you down
All your hopes dashed to the ground
Nobody loved you, nobody will
Why should you even try...but still...
[Me] Friday night, I had a few
[Wife] There was no need to talk
[Me] There she was, out of the blue
[Wife] We just started to walk
[Me] Hand in hand, we took the floor
[Wife] And we danced, and we danced, and we danced
[Me] I could move, I could talk...even more...
[Passion] Do it right, do it right, we ain't got all night
Do it now, do it now, I think you know how
[Pride] Let it out, let it out, now don't mess about
Let her in, let her in, let the party begin!
[Agony] Remember your father, well you're just like him
Nothing but violence and fury within
Remember your mother, so lonely and sad
This will be her fate if you treat her as bad
[Passion] Do it right, do it right, we ain't got all night
Do it now, do it now, I think you know how
[Pride] Let it out, let it out, now don't mess about
Let her in, let her in, let the party begin!
[Agony] Remember your father, well you're just like him
Nothing but violence and fury within
Remember your mother, so lonely and sad
This will be her fate if you treat her as bad
[Passion] Do it right, do it right, we ain't got all night
Do it now, do it now, I think you know how
[Pride] Let it out, let it out, now don't mess about
Let her in, let her in, let the party begin!
12. Day Twelve: Trauma
[Reason]
Think hard, you are lying here in a hospital bed
Disregard the emotions inside your head
Concentrate on the real world beyond your mind
It's not to late to leave your burdens behind
[Fear] We won't let you go
Take you down below
Dark crypts of your soul
Locked inside your head...
You're better of dead
[Agony] Locked away, she lives in isolation
It's been that way, since he has gone
She been through life of depravation
She depends on you, her only son
[Passion] She won't let you go
Keep you down below
Dark crypts of your soul
Locked inside your head
You're better of dead
[Agony] Where are you, can't you hear her calling?
Nothing you can do, you have no time
There is no one there, to catch her now she's falling
Why should you care, you are doing fine
[Passion] She won't let you go
Keep you down below
Dark crypts of your soul
Locked inside your head
You're better of dead
[Reason] Now she's at rest, she finally found her peace
There's no need to blame yourself
You must let go, or the pain will never cease
It's time to crawl out of your shell
Your mother died, the day your father left
A part of you died as well
Feelings of guilt will haunt you 'til the end
You must fight hard to break this spell
But it hurts...
[Fear] You hear her voice, from beyond her grave
"Where were you son, when I needed you
Is this your thanks for all the warmth I gave
Did you forget what I been through?"
You hear his voice, cold and merciless
"You worthless fool, you let her die!"
And deep within yourself, you must confess
Your ways cannot be justified
[Pride] By now you realized, you have to be
relentless to survive
Repress your memories,
bury all emotions and thrive!
It's your life!
[Reason] Now she's at rest, she found her peace
[Fear] You hear her voice, from the grave
[Reason] You must let go or the pain won't cease
[Fear] "Is this your thanks for all I gave"
[Reason] A part of you died as well
[Fear] "You worthless fool, you let her die"
[Reason] It's time to crawl out of your shell
[Fear] Your ways cannot be justified
[Pride] By now you realized, you have to be
relentless to survive
Repress your memories,
bury all emotions and thrive!
It's your life!
13. Day Thirteen: Sign
[Love] Faith has come to warn
That you far to long forsaken her heart
Move to the truth
Breath the sunlight burning in her open arms
Break the chains that
Bind you to a past that feeds this bitter days
Seize your only chance
Follow the stars that beckon you through blackened skies
[Wife] Can you feel me touch your aching heart
I can sense how much you're missing me...
Give me a sign, show me you're there
I am sure you'll find a way back to me
[Me] I can't believe I turned so vile
How could I've ignored her smile?
She was always there to easy my pain
I am so ashamed
I wonder why she stayed with me
How she endured my vanity
I wish I could go back and mend my ways
Is it too late?
[Wife] Can you see, I swear it's true, a teardrop trickling down his cheek?
[Best Friend] Yes, indeed, I see it too, could it be he's hurting inside?
[Wife] Don't you think we should be glad he feels anything at all?
[Best Friend] It could well be he cries because of us
[Wife] Does it matter why he cries?
[Best Friend] What's going on in his mind?
[Wife] Has he's given us a sign?
[Wife] Can you see, I swear it's true, him clenching his right hand into a fist?
[Best Friend] Yes, indeed, I see it too, could it be that he's raging inside?
[Wife] Don't you think we should be glad he has any thoughts at all?
[Best Friend] It could well be he angry because of us
[Wife] Does it matter if he is?
[Best Friend] What's going on in his mind?
[Wife] Has he's given us a sign?
14. Day Fourteen: Pride
[Me] I have always been creative, I don't understand
Aspired to be an artist, not a business man
[Pride] You need to show your old man you're in control
To be successful, you'd sell your own soul!
(you'd sell your own soul!)
[Me] I've always been respectable, I don't understand
I tried to be compassionate, I'm not a ruthless man!
[Pride] You need to show them you're superior, you lead the field
No one opposes you, all man must yield!
(all man must yield!)
[Me] I've always been affectionate, don't understand
I really love her, I'm not a heartless man!
[Pride] You have no time for commitments, they get in the way
Get down to business, there's no time to play!
[Reason] You can still change, and right what is wrong
[Pride] But can you swallow me, or am I too strong?
[Reason] You have to get back now, it's not too late
[Pride] It's not like you two resign to your fate
[Reason] The loved ones are waiting, break out of you cage
[Pride] You have the power, give in to your rage
[Reason] Listen to Pride now, for once he is right
[Pride] Listen to Reason, let us be your guide
15. Day Fifteen: Betrayal
[Fear] This is what you dreamt about
Director of the firm
Will it be you, or your best friend?
He's always been the better man and
He fits all their terms
What will you do to gain your end...
[Agony] You remember he once told you
He tampered with the books
When he lost out on the deal
You're digging up the evidence
...no one looks
You leave it there for all to see
[Reason] This memory burns inside
You can't forget, you cannot fight or erase it
[Passion] Let it go, try to unwind
[Reason] You'll have to tell and set it right
You cannot run, you cannot hide, so face it!
[Passion] Wake up, free your mind
[Fear] You never talk, he'll never know
What you have done
But can you live with this betrayal?
[Agony] They found him out and let him go
I guess you've won
But one day, the truth might be unveiled
[Reason] This memory burns inside
You can't forget, you cannot fight or erase it
[Passion] Let it go, try to unwind
[Reason] You'll have to tell and set it right
You cannot run, you cannot hide, so face it!
[Passion] Wake up, free your mind
[Reason] This memory burns inside
You can't forget, you cannot fight or erase it
[Passion] Let it go, try to unwind
[Reason] You'll have to tell and set it right
You cannot run, you cannot hide, so face it!
[Passion] Wake up, free your mind
[Me] I have to talk and let him know
What I have done
I cannot live with this betrayal
He's always been the better man
I never won
Now the truth must be unveiled
16. Day Sixteen: Loser
[Father] Look at you, lying there, defenceless and alone
See I am no fool, I always knew you wouldn't make it on your own
Cos you're just like your mother, well, where is she now?
You'll end up like her soon, 6 feet under ground, loser!
I came here to watch you bleed, oh how I love to gloat
If you had any balls at all, you'd grab me by the throat
You don't even look like me, ha! Not even close!
You're an aberration, some freak...I suppose, loser!
I had my fun, I'm going back to the place I don't call home
There's no one there who waits for me, but you won't hear me moan
My ex-wives all sue me, and with half my kids in jail
I'll still come out laughing, coz me? I never fail, loser!
[Rage] NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER!
You're shooting it from afar, go tell it in a bar
You're shooting it from afar my father!
17. Day Seventeen: Accident?
[Reason] You're driving home, It's one PM
You cannot function, you're a broken man
Your past is catching up with you
Only her tenderness can help you through
you see her smile, at another man
[Wife] Did you see me smile at another man?
It was only us, please understand...
[Reason]
You see him hold her, in his arms
[Wife] Did you see him hold me in his arms?
We needed warmth, we meant no harm...
[Agony] Love left you, without me you're all alone!
[Reason] Tears of sorrow fill your eyes
Your cold and wretched life flashes by
Is that your father standing there?
You turn the wheel, you no longer care...
You saw her smile at another man
[Wife] Did you see me smile at another man?
It was only us, please understand...
[Reason] You saw him hold her, in his arms
[Wife] Did you see him hold me in his arms?
We needed warmth, we meant no harm...
[Agony] Love left you, without me you're all alone!
Love wrecked you!
[Passion] You saw her smile at another man
Now you finally understand
He held her in his arms
You've nothing left, it's gone too far...
[Agony] Your memory begins to clear
Now you see what brought you here
You try to open up your eyes
But the doubts will leave you paralyzed
[Wife] I smiled at another man
Please understand...
He held me in his arms
We meant no harm...
[Agony] Love left you, without me you're all alone!
Love wrecked you, I am the oldest friend you known!
18. Day Eighteen: Realization
[Reason] Now you know the truth, what will you do?
[Me] I still can't believe it's true...
[Passion] You better believe it, and make them pay!
[Me] There has to be another way...
[Pride] You cannot take this lying down!
[Me] I cannot stand up, can you show me how?
[Love] You must forgive them and open your heart
[Me] It's all my fault, it tears me apart!
[Agony] It would have been better if you would have just died!
[Me] No, I've got to win this fight!
[Fear] Can you face them after all you did?
[Me] I gotta reveal the feelings I hid
[Best Friend] See him fight, he's all on his own...
[Me] I need your help, can't do it alone!
[Wife] Listen to me, can you hear me shout?
[Me] Let me out!
19. Day Nineteen: Disclosure
[Best Friend] My good friend, I hope you hear my voice
I must alleviate this ache
I thought about this and found I have no choice
I have to tell you this for conscience sake
I felt alone, forsaken and afraid
Out of work and out of love
I needed someone to ease some of the pain
She was there for me when times were rough
[Wife] My sweet love, my heart belongs to you
But I was lonely and the need for passion grew
You where never here, and even when you were
Most of my words would go unheard
[Best Friend] I'd be there to comfort her
[Wife] We'd shared our distress
[Best Friend] But we were never in love
[Wife] Can you forgive us?
[Best Friend] My good friend, well maybe I am wrong
I think you saw us on that day
I want you to know, she loved you all along
I hope that this will help you in some way
[Wife] My sweet love, my heart belongs to you
But I was lonely and the need for passion grew
You where never here, and even when you were
Most of my words would go unheard
[Best Friend] I'd be there to comfort her
[Wife] We'd shared our distress
[Best Friend] But we were never in love
[Wife] Can you forgive us?
[Love] Don't be afraid, her heart belongs to you
[Passion] Don't be afraid, don't keep her waiting
[Love] It's time to rise, and tell them what you feel
[Passion] You have to let them know
[Love] Here the dream ends, this is real
[Me] I'll be there to comfort her
[Passion] I know you will be!
[Me] I'll come back to life
[Love] I know that you can!
20. Day Twenty: Confrontation
[Best Friend] See his mouth, he tries to speak
He cannot move, his voice is weak...
[Me] My dear friend can you hear me now?
I'll try to tell you how I feel
[Best Friend] I feel the pain inside of you
Tell me please, what can I do?
[Me] Listen well to what I have to say
I have to tell you...of my betrayal
[Me] I reveal the facts, it was clear
It spelled the end of your career
[Best Friend] Yes, I always felt that it was you
I repressed the thought although I knew the truth
[Me] The truth is out, I feel relieved
You hate me now, you've been deceived?
[Best Friend] Oh no, in a way we are even now
Come back to us...somehow
[Wife and Love] Cross that bridge to the other side
Follow your heart, you can't go wrong
Come with me, I will be your guide
And lead you back where you belong
[Agony] Welcome to reality, be ready for the pain
Welcome to reality, will it be in vain
Welcome to reality,
Nothing much has changed since you were gone
[Passion] Rise up and show the world you can be a better man
Rise up and show the world you care, yes you can
Rise up and show the world you're taking your chance
Rise up and show the world!
[Agony] Welcome back!
[Reason] Welcome to reality, wake up and rejoice
Welcome to reality, you've made the right choice
Welcome to reality, and let them hear your voice, shout it out!
[Pride] Rise up and show the world your battle is won
Rise up and show the world the old you is gone
Rise up and show the world your new life has begun
Rise up and show the world!
[Reason and Agony] Welcome back!
[Fear] Here inside the question burns
Are you sure of your return?
[Me] I am sure I deserve this chance
Now I understand it all
[Fear] It all seems so unreal to you
Can you decide what to do?
[Me] Yes I can, oh I will survive
Look at me...I'm alive
[Wife and Love] Cross that bridge to the other side
Follow your heart, you can't go wrong
Come with me, I will be your guide
And lead you back where you belong
[Best Friend] There is so much to see, there is so much to live for
[Wife] Come with me, my love
[Reason] You feel her warmth, glowing on your skin
[Love] You're never alone, I knew we could make it
[Fear] Aaaaaaaaarrrrgh!
[Passion] Can't you feel that fire, can't you feel it burn?
[Agony] Be ready for the pain, ready for the pain!
[Pride] Well rise up, your battle has been won, your new life has begun
[Me] I'm alive, I won't look back, aaaaah!
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