orning comes I feel so calm
lights surrounds me and the night is far
But soon I will be there again
when I close my eyes I’m damned

All alone and embraced by darkness
anguish haunting me so I can’t sleep
Longing for the morninglight to surround me
cause every night I fear for my dreams

If I fall asleep, maybe they take me away
The thought makes me weep, I’m starting to pray
I have gathered all my fear, if I fall asleep I’ll die
So I’m sitting here and wonder about life


2. Mentally Exposed

Waking up alone
and my dream is gone
Face another day

I’m feeling cold
my soul has holes
That will never heal

I’m so sick inside
got a twisted mind
Can no longer cope

I wish I could be happy but reality hurts
It brings me down and makes me lick the dirt

Looking back at life
then I realize
I’m not meant to be

How did I end up here
is it cause I fear
The world outside

I can’t hear a sound
and I can’t look out
Mostly my eyes are shut

I fear for my tomorrow cause it might be like yesterday
I felt all the sorrow and I cried in vain

Looking at the white walls with tears in my eyes
I don’t know why I’m here and why I’m alive
It’s so cold in here and no one hears me cry
When death calls my name I’ll gladly say goodbye

Night will soon be here
then I disappear
Into my own world

No one can hurt me there
and I feel no fear
Embraced by tranquility

Please don’t let me wake
my body shakes
I have left my life

Now I’m happy and reality doesn’t hurt
I’m underground, I’m buried in the dirt
No white walls surrounds me, now I’m free to fly
To leave this earth was a good way to say goodbye


3. No More Winters

It’s so dark outside even if the morning has arrived
The snow is shimering white bringing tears to his eyes
Today he will walk the woods and probably take his life
The reason to live is gone since he lost his wife

No more winters no more pain or lonley nights
I have felt so alone but soon I’ll be by your side

He feel the cold winds blowing towards his face
He will be leaving this earth and the human race
Feel so empty inside no feelings in his mind
Walking deeper into the woods to find a place to die

No more winters no more pain or lonley nights
I have felt so alone but soon I’ll be by your side
No more winters no more pain or lonley nights
Death will unite us so I don’t have to cry

I dream of you at night
When I close my eyes
I see your face
You are on the other side
I will cross that river
to show you my grace
All those memories
they hurt so much
I can’t stand to be alive

I hear you calling me
and I get so warm inside
I’m longing to touch your skin
now I will say goodbye
I’m going to leave this earth
are you waiting for me
Cause I’m coming tonight
no more winters in sight


4. Wistful Whispering

I see your beautiful face
when you lie and sleep
Your face looks so pale
and you sleep so deep
I won’t realize
that you will leave me soon
The sickness that you’ve got
it’s going to end your life

I’m sitting by your side
and I hold your hand
I can’t hold back my tears
I’m so afraid
I hear you whisper my name
and you sound so weak
You just closed your eyes
and told me goodbye

In my hour of sorrow, I’m screaming why
You have just left me, I’m standing by your side
You look so beautiful, I cannot hide my tears
Now I’m all alone after all these years
I will never forget you, you will always be on my mind
You were so special, you were one of a kind


5. Voluntary Silence

So many words are buried in my mind
I don’t speak my piece I’ll keep it all inside
No one really knows what I have to say
I won’t reveal myself I don’t work that way

I don’t waste my words
I speak when I feel
and when I have something to say
But sometimes I feel so down
that I don’t even move my mouth
those days you better stay away

I wish people could see the expression on my face
If you don’t get it then which is my strongest trace
Something is wrong and I don’t care to explain
That’s my fault and I give myself the pain

I don’t waste my words
I speak when I feel
and when I have something to say
But sometimes I feel so down
that I don’t even move my mouth
those days you better stay away

Don’t force me to speak and explore myself
I'll let you in if you give of yourself
Locked up words can cause grief and pain
Words spoken without a care can bring the same

I don’t waste my words
I speak when I feel
and when I have something to say
But sometimes I feel so down
that I don’t even move my mouth
those days you better stay away


6. Dayexchange

Do you want to trade a day with me
I get yours and you get mine for free
I have turned my days into nights
anything to avoid the daylight

I must be stupid cause I feel such shame
I am a failure and have no one to blame
I wish I could be happy and smile
for heaven’s sake I can’t even cry

Welcome to my misery
I’m gonna guide you through
We will take the easy way
I think it’s best for you

I must be stupid cause I feel such shame
I am a failure and have no one to blame
I wish I could be happy and smile
for heaven’s sake I can’t even cry

I have seen so many pictures of the life I want
I have longed in vain but there is nothing to talk about
Am I just wasting my time, or am I doing fine
gimme a ticket to paradise and I will say goodbye

Everything for you is back to normal
was it as good as you imagined
I guess you can’t compare with heaven
but you’re welcome back for a trade any day

I must be stupid cause I feel such shame
I am a failure and have no one to blame
I wish I could be happy and smile
for heaven’s sake I can’t even cry


7. Different Moods

In the fields of loneliness
I’m standing lost again
I wish I could tell you
how I feel inside

Life isn’t a dream that’s going on forever
when I’m dead and gone I hope I’m feeling better

I can’t describe my emotions
can’t put them into words
I do not often cry
I want love but I just hide

Life isn’t a dream that’s going on forever
when I’m dead and gone I hope I’m feeling better

I have felt the bitterness
I have felt the joy
I’ve been in different moods
all my life
No state seems to please me
I wonder who I am
My flame for life is fading
save me if you can

In the death valley lonley
I’m standing lost and cold
My flame is burned out
I’m no longer alive

Life isn’t a dream that’s going on forever
when I’m dead and gone I hope I’m feeling better