ature feels one hundred below
My being is numb,but I strain to fell
A heart that's become black and rotten
You don't care to look,you don't care to see
This man that love has forgotten
Asking for nothing ,yet wanting so much
Longing for one thing, the warmth of a touch
I'm...
Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone
Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow
Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul
Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero
I can't seem to move, I can't seem to think
I'm not sure my heart is still beating
As life from me ,flows, my spirit will go
And haunt this world that I'm leaving
Offering nothing yet taking so much
Regretting not sharing the warmth of a touch
If I could just do it all again,I'd change my ways and would not be so
Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone
Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow
Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul
Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero

[Music and Lyrics: D.Ott]


2. Fade 2 Grey

Just another day,I go about my business
I start to shave in my ordinary way
Nothing has changed, yet something is different
Ah yes-- It's my birthday today
My skin feels a little tighter
The razor bites at my face
What are those lines in the mirror?
Can't seem to wipe them away
And my vision is blurry, I don't know what it is
And a blemish is swirling out from under my skin
And there is far too much hair in ths sink today
And what's left on my head has somehow turned to grey
Like a picture in the sun,the colors start to fade
Like broken glass upon the shore, the sharpness wears away
My face bleeding, I drop the razor to the floor
I try to catch it, but my hands do not obey me
What is that pounding,is there someone at the door?
It's just my heart,straining not to fail me
My legs feel so heavy
Each inch seems like a mile
Muscles burn from the effort
As I fall into denial
And my speech is slurred, I don't know what it is
And my arm is bruised from where I've touched my skin
And there is something wrong with my mirror today
It seems my eyes of blue has somehow turned to grey
Just like a chameleon who changes his skin
I went to sleep young and virile,woke up old,tired and thin
Did I sleep through my life and waste away my youth?
Or did time just pass by and I'm denying the truth?
And my vision is blurry, I don't know what it is
And a blemish is swirling out from under my skin
And there is far too much hair in ths sink today
And what's left on my head has somehow turned to grey
And my speech is slurred, I don't know what it is
And my arm is bruised from where I've touched my skin
And there is something wrong with my mirror today
It seems my eyes of blue has somehow turned to grey

[Music: D.Ott,P.Craddick]
[Lyrics: D.Ott]


3. Pure

I look into a sea of blue in your eyes
And see a full and swollen moon
Resplendent in a stormy sky
I look through your gaze, its source is pure and uncorrupted
And see a wilderness of dunes, untouched,uninterrupted
Pessimis protects me
Limp hope won't let me down
Still i lust for the pure
It unties the knots and turns me around
I swear,I won't unravel this time...
I banish "too good to be true" from my mind
I'm steeled in my resolve by this gem I never thought I'd find
The echoes of your laughter fall upon me,like the calming rain
They intimate a surreal world,smooth-surfaced and free of stain
Pessimis protects me
Limp hope won't let me down
Still i lust for the pure
It unties the knots and turns me around
I swear,I won't unravel this time...
Your gaze's source is uncorrupted...Pure
Dunes untouched,uninterrupted...Pure
I'm steeled in my resolve by this gem I never thought I'd find
Echoes of your laughter falling down on me
Like the calming rain...
Pessimis protects me
Limp hope won't let me down
Still i lust for the pure
It unties the knots and turns me around
I swear,I won't unravel this time...

[Music: P.Craddick,D.Ott]
[Lyrics: P.Craddick]


4. Broken

Not what I've done,not what I've spoken
Not what I've shown,not that I lied
Just holding on would render me broken
But weak as I am, my hands remain tied
Fear of wrath,fear of pain
Fear of facing what I am
Fear this might leave a stain
Of your blood on my hands
My face is scarred,my hands unclean
Can't wash away the fool I've been
Murder one or suicide:
Which would be the greater sin?
Straining to hold each breath I'm taking
A shackle that pulls,I can't set it free
Not quite below,but slowly I'm breaking
In saving you I would be killing me
Fear of wind,fear of rain
We built this house on shifting sand
Fear this might leave a stain
Of my own blood on my hands
My face is scarred,my hands unclean
Can't wash away the fool I've been
Murder one or suicide:
Which would be the greater sin?
A wave that hits from behind me
A weight that pulls from beneath
A storm that blows all around me
A fear inside that has bound me

[Music: T.Leonard,D.Ott,P.Craddick]
[Lyrics: T.Leonard]


5. Hostile World

I sit in silence here alone
An agony I've made my own
An empty chasm in the dark
Is where I choose to hide my heart
Something that I've lived with ,for so very long
I've never had an interest ,in what's right or wrong
Deviante, or so I'm told
Villanous,or so extolled
A heightned animosity
Distorting everything I see
This world has closed its doors to me
Sat me in the balcony
Now my only recompense:
A gift I've honed to mastery
Tainted eyes that strain to see
I'm not in prision but,I'm never free
A curse that somehow has followed me
I;m not in prision,but I'm never free
Looking out this dirty window
From inside my trophy room
Hostile world I've been bor into:
Hostile world-- I've been consumed
I'm the one you sat behind you
The one you've choosen to neglect
Now I've choosen to confront you
You're the wrong I must correct
Tainted eyes that strain to see
I'm not in prision but,I'm never free
A curse that somehow has followed me
I'm not in prision,but I'm never free

[Music: D.Ott,M.Geimer,E.Platt,P.Cradick]
[Lyrics: T.Leonard]


6. Look Away

Standing looking in the mirror
Wondering who it is I see
The face seems so familiar
But it doesn't look like me
Something is changing ,something's different
A foreign look behind my stare
I feel frantic, almost desperate
He acts as if he doesn't care
A smile cracks his face, a tear comes to my eye
His laughter fills the room ,words echo in my mind
Look away- (Don't look at me)
Look away- (You won't like what you see)
Look away- (Fear what's inside me)
But I can't look away
Fell the lock of tension closing
As I slowly turn the key
I sense joints lock into place
Like cement setting in my veins
Like an attic stored with memories,the contents are so rarely seen
Look away- (Don't look at me)
Look away- (You won't like what you see)
Look away- (Fear what's inside me)
But I can't look away
A complex creature,I labor to see through the haze
I strive to know myself,but I'm lost within the maze
It's painful learning the truth about myself
So I always look away
Through the passage lies the answers,to the questions inside me
So,tomorrow like today, I'll stare again,doing nothing

[Music and Lyrics: D.Ott]


7. Armour

Here I stand Beside you ,still I somehow stand apart
I'm burdened in my spirit,a stone is weighing down my heart
I'm riddled in my depths by this half-heartedness
Sundered from the "now" by self-protectiveness
Look around in your heart
Cut off from the moment
Divested all the way
No music in this silence
No colour in this grey
I'm rarely fully there,I cloak myself from harm's way
An inmate of my own device who's blinded by the light of day
Summon forth from your heart
Cut off from the moment
Divested all the way
No music in this silence
No colour in this grey
This chasm I cannot bridge
This hole I cannot fill with sand
Summon forth,from your heart,the whole man
Half-speed,half-there,thus I'm half-alive
Un-veiled and un-guised then I'm genuine
But why do I die just as I come alive?
So used to this armour, and how it fits
Cut off from the moment
Divested all the way
No music in this silence
No colour in this grey
This chasm I cannot bridge
This hole I cannot fill with sand
Summon forth,from your heart,the whole man

[Music: P.Craddick,D.Ott]

Lyrics:P.Craddick


8. Distractions

Standing alone in a crowded room ,he hears it
A voice so familiar,not unlike his own,he fears it
His name being called out from across the room, but he can't see
He's willingly blindfolded starting towards the voice,but each step leads
Into a dance with a different stranger
His purpose he quickly forgets
Each dance delights till the song is through
But the silence between the songs reminds him what he'd intended to
Do
But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits patiently
Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see
And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting jealously
He moves towards the voice,more determined now but still can't see
The music begins and he's pulled away again ,by flattery
Just as with a drug the words purposely inoculate
All puffed up,but silence,,when the music ends,quickly deflates
Now the voice,though never changing, begins to sound to him like a
Shriek
He covers his ears with his hands
Now deaf and blind, he wanders aimlessly
Submerged in the darkness he's forgotten what he was to be
But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits jealouly
Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see
And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting patiently
He cannot see the floor is wet, nor does he hear the strangers warn
He slips onto his back and,lying paralyzed,he feels forlorn
The music begins,and strangers whom he trusted leave him there
Helpless and immoblile lying on the floor----and no one cares
But the voice that once was distant sounds as thought it;s right next to
His ear
And no longer the shrieking does he hear
The voice says "WALK" and,suddenly, he knew he would
It says"REMOVE THE BLINDFOLD", suddenly he knew he always
Could
But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits patiently
Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see
And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting jealously
But the voice-----It knows no time-----Waits jealously
Can't record a wrong,his past it can't see
And if it takes him forever,it'll still be there,waiting patiently

[Music: D.Ott,P.Craddick]
[Lyrics: T.Leonard]


9. Missing

One who's scorched by the fire,I stand alone brazen-faced
Love's become an open fumace,my follies stoked the fireplace
Blind to the peril around me,my resistance wearing thin
I fell prey to the power of temptation,and the brand of infidelity kissed
My skin
With each kiss a heart breaking,with a touch her love dies for me
Slowly desintegrates
Blackned by coals of deception,I cry for redemption far too late
Here today, gone tomorrow
Trail of tears leads to sorrow
Leads to sorrow
Alone I wallow in my suffering
So much regret behind my stare
Is love lost or just misplaced?
Can a heart broken be repaired?
With each thought conscience burning,with a sign her love dies for me
Cannot exonerate
Eyes filled with discontent,I plead for forgiveness far too late
Here today, gone tomorrow
Trail of tears leads to sorrow
No reprieve,despite your wishing
Trust betrayed,now she's missing
Her image you cannot replace
Missing,you hope to reconcile,but you've lost face
With each day soul searching,with the night I cry
"Restore me,reverse this morose state
Never again shall I falter,afford me this one mistake"
Fear today,loathe tomorrow
Trail of Tears leads to sorrow
Dream of when you were kissing
So aware of what you're missing

[Music and Lyrics: D.Ott]