oat?
How do you call this vicious poison you threw to my
Face, making my eyes sting?

For you what only remains is diamond dust blown in the air...

I feel behind indifference, the seed of revenge growing in me
I hear behind the curtain the vicious murmur guiding the beast in me

Running won't bring me anywhere, I can't find. I won't find what you were
Addicted, there's no remedy - it's passion. it's excess that takes place in me

Acid can't freeze and bloods can't join wrong alchemy, the damage is done
I kissed the feet, now can be born and find a reason to be

Love: electric twilights, mystic fogs, pornography for
Angels, diamond dust blown in the air and then the candle dies...
Lovers: philosophers in doubt. theorists of nothingness
Rocked by the illusion of their poisoned literature.
Addicted.

Were you always mine?
Your vicious aims got the better of me
I hear the voices of regrets shouting at me, shouting at me

The whys, the hows
I drew a line from here to nowhere, a path to redemption,
Will I come back some day?

Walking on a road to nothing... will I come back some day?

Love in order to hide what you are: hate in disguise, doped morality
Trying to keep the flame burning

As we were born we'll all die, so we must keep ready
The finger on the trigger, ready to free
Ourselves of the growing tumour gnawing our guts,
Know that when life humiliates, air is immaculate...

What can remain for the years to come
Paralytic reality
Vanity undeer valium

It's just a secret that you can't hide
Lines that I can read even in lies
It's written on your lips and in your eyes
I can't stand it anymore, things must cease

It must cease and I know how to proceed
It's your turn
You now see the pity in my eyes and nothing else.


2. Yours Cowardly

Am I the one I think, the one I hope
Prisoner of my own state of mind?
Is it me who looks at me through the mirror?
Or is it the betrayer imploring?

The ones I met in my endless nights seem so real
Dreams are war fields, ruined churches on infinite plains
Children live here, they are dying. dying by using
Each of their breaths singing gruesome songs again... and again

Patience
The only way to catch the light
Give me the illusion to live
Give me the rain to wash my past years, give me the wind
To move torments away
Give me the lfame to burn her memory

Time bastard time, cruel enemy
You use your more efficient weapon on me
Chrisantemums now rot on the coffin
You wore her down, now you wear me down
Life like a requiem, a monotonous requiem
Declaration of war! Fire! Water! Air! Take my pain away!

Take my dying planet away!
Take the children that cry away!
Take the doubt haunting me away!
And bring my dignity back.

For me the days have lost all of their savour
Pathetic agony, sadistic oblivion!

A dying wish, a last prayer, show me the boundary ou la nuit s'acheve
Fire!
Water! Air! Take my pain away!

Whe... Did time... Put... its bloody lips... on mine

Of dear mistress, you who gave me a sense to my existence
Oh dear mistress, this dance is a trance to eternity!

...may these landsxapes be mine, and let have a trip to them... together

A trip far from my dying planet, a trip dar from the children that cry.
Bring my dignity back and accept all my apologies

The end seems now so near! Doubts now wear their blackest dress
Open my veins and you will find two colours of blood spilling of them
One for hers and one for mine, the one feeding me, the other poisoning me
Sick and blind, weak and blind, the one I was, the one I am

The sea in which I'm now drowning is the one that she filled with her tears
The sea in which I'm now drowning is deep... enough... to erase... all traces of me.


3. Will You Forgive Me

When Your eyes will find these words, my reason won't be anymore...
Will you forgive me?

See my decline
Between the flesh and the blood
My soul tired of living is going out
Muses scream their symphony for the dying part of me
What a sad dusk tonight

I spent my life
Waiting for nothing
Expecting this morbid night

Fighting to loose
My mind here like an enraged beast
Shut up vicious voices that shout since years and years
Leave me endless hours and take with you pages
Of my life dirtied by boredom
And you my love, forget me

Madness... take me
The hopes caressing my heart are the fact of your coming
Each beat of it, shapeless bride, will be yours
'cause your the only one

I feel you by my side
Whispering my name
Drying my tears
Here is the term of my wait
Here is the term of my agony

The pure side, guide of my schemes is now leaving my body
Protect me of the fear of the unknown
Prevent me of regretting her love
My reason bleeds on the autel of non-sense
Escaping from its cell: my head broken by shame

Will you forgive me?
Nothing rational left, I must break our promise
The words we shared were too hard to honour for me


4. Like A Musing

Life passes like a sigh around me
The cruel spiral intoxicates me
I'm sinking day by day in this perpetual motion
A slow endless fall written for me

Like a musing, my empty life
Like a musing, a sigh

Life told me the worst lies
And I could only swallow them

I am nothing living the life written for me
I try nothing disgusted by the salt of my tears
Life told to me and I could only swallow them, the worst lies

I don't want to wake up
'cause I don't want to take control

The past is always here like an infidel lover

Promise me there will be no tomorrow
Promise me everything has an end
Promise me soon the shroud will cover me

Life like a musing

I endured so many years
These things so hard to accept


5. Dying With Elegance



6. Insignificant

So much patience and devotion, but the world never got
On
We fought it so many times, but the world never got on
We thought the best could happen to the ones who can wait
We thought others could save us but have a look at them;
They are all insignificant

Do it for me it you can, in a slow motion, in a slow motion
Blow this endless melancholy, at a slow motion, at a slow motion
Don't let me alone facing it, the world of others, the world of them
Take my hand, tonight I feel insignificant be in it

We can't rewrite the story, I know it's too late
Our prints in time will disappear, I can't deny it
In our fairytales heroes die, princesses never wake up
But let try to find for a last time, enough strength
To arise together

Every minute shouts its sermons
The distress of living flagellates our hearts
In hate of this insignificant world
We can find strength enough to arise

Our life is behind us, far behind
Have a look at them all, they are all insignificant

Do it for me


7. Apologia For Suicide

I can't believe what happened last night, unbearable
Tragedy, your words were razor blade hits in my heart, an
Apologia for suicide.

Go and find what you have to find, there is nothing for
You here, you must know I'm not here to be the icon you
Adore, when everything hurts, find your respite
Elsewhere.*

All these years spent in coma... a pathetic psychodrama,
Here is what we lived
Coming back to reality is so hard... I must find an exit to
Regain my purity.

You've got the weapon in your hands: your cute eyes were all for me
"you've got no reason to stay, so let the bullet find its way
And let enter the sunlight"

I followed your star to empty skies, I did it so many times,
I thought it was a way to approach you, a way to keep you forever
I could endure all the tortures until you sleep away

Never coming back

What a deplorable denouement, did we some day share anything?

"Persist in your mediocrity, follow like a slave, I can
Nothing for you, go and find your way.
Apologia for suicide, find your respite elsewhere. Let the
Bullet find its way and let enter the sunlight"

All these years spent in coma, all these waits
No one to rest on, no help of fate, all these waits

No can enter the sunlight


8. Of Sex And Rage

The reflect of the mirror throws me again
The picture of our bodies
In a cold vicious embrace
Vision of sex and rage

Innamorata mia, sink in my eyes,
And you'll feel behind pleasure the strongest embrace

Is it velvet or is it blood that is gliding along my skin?

In this suffocating air, searching for my breath, I can see
Him horrified

Feed my desire with the words, feed my vanity with the looks
Guide my hands I know that we can cross the threshold and
Find together the way to reach immortality

And leave this bastard race, rapist of our existence

Prepare your soul, prepare your mind, this embrace is a ceremony
Hidden behind our golden kiss, lays a pure hate against humanity

Allonge ton corps sur ce lit de narcisses
Prolonge encore, cet instant exquis

I can see him, the Christ on the wall
Horrified, by the scene played under his eyes

Prepare your soul, prepare your mind
Cause the scene we are now playing is the key of everything

In this life, all I could let behind was the scent of your skin, the hate in your eyes,
Was it me the predator or was it you?
In this life, all I could let behind was the memory of your grace,
Your heart beating for mine
Was it me the submitted or was it you?

Making a break through cosmos, the fleed was not blood
It's the hate that's unites us through the lie

The sweet feeling that I felt was my vital fluid escaping

In this life all I could let behind was the scent of your skin, the hate in your eyes,
It was not me the predator... it was you

Ah, the curtain getting down on me, announces the end of all


9. Mon Dernier Voyage

[Acte I: La douleur de vivre]

Le jour efface, sur mon corps endolori
Infligйes par l'ennui, les plaies de la veille.
Il me veut supporter encore, en dйpit du mal qui me poursuit,
Son йprouvant rituel.

Rentrerons alors en scиne, autant d'ennemis pour moi,
Mille autres кtres, et leur bonheur cruel, qui prendront par а la mascarade.
Je revкtirai encore, teintй de noir а l'odeur de pluie,
Le costume usй qui aurait tant jurй autrefois, mais qui sied aujourd'hui si bien а mon rфle.

Dans les mondes clairs que seule l'ivresse inspire, la reprйsentation est terminйe...

[Acte II: Absinthe ou les terres de la delivrance]

Dans les mondes que m'inspire la compassion de l'absinthe,
Je vois des paysages endormis,
Des forкts а l'allure infinie,
Des jours et des nuits qui n'en sont plus,
De vastes lacs а l'eau calme et limpide oщ je vois sombrer ma peine dans un silence exquis.

Le jour efface, sur mon corps endolori
Infligйes par l'ennui, les plaies de la veille.
Il me veut supporter encore, en dйpit du mal qui me poursuit,
Son йprouvant rituel.

Quelle est cette force qui m'attire en ces lieux interdits?
La seule ivresse ne peut кtre seule maоtre а ces rйpits, seule maоtre а ces rйpits...

Parce que le froid,
Parce que le vide, le temps est un leurre:
Si mon corps se fвne il ne cesse de porter en lui ce lourd fardeau qu'est mon вme,
Et moi qui boit la liqueur trouble, des gorgйes comme des jours,
Est-ce le goыt de l'ennui qui l'a rendue infвme?

Les besoins me traоnent,
C'est l'envie qui me manque.
Instants exquis autant de battements de cils angйliques,
Qui me nourissez d'ailleurs,
Tirez-moi а jamais de ma prison de chair!
Que ces marches ivres ne soient plus vaines

[Acte III: Le chemin vers la lumiere]

L'hiver recouvre mon corps d'un linge blanc et froid,
Hiver! Est-ce un linceul que tu poses sur moi?
Par ton souffle glacial est-ce la mort qui me parle?
Tвches-tu de guider vers elle, mes pas dans la nuit?

Et dans mes longs dйlires,
Je m'en remet а lui
Ainsi qu'aux astres fidиles
Eux qui restent invariants comme des йcrits sacrйs.

Le jour efface, sur mon corps endolori
Infligйes par l'ennui, les plaies de la veille.
Il me veut supporter encore, en dйpit du mal qui me poursuit,
Son йprouvant rituel.

Quelle est cette force qui m'attire en ces lieux interdits?
La seule ivresse ne peut кtre seule maоtre а ces rйpits, seule maоtre а ces rйpits...
Et si je rampe pour finir ma route,
C'est que mes forces me quittentmais ma fiertй est intacte.

[Acte IV: La rencontre]

A genoux, grattant la Terre, creusant une tombe а mes tourments......
C'est le sang de la haine qui pourrissait sous mes ongles.
Caressant la Terre, mиre de tous les hommes,
Dans le plus noir des incestes, Je laisse а la charge de ces larmes qui me brыlent,
Le pouvoir de fertiliser avec l'aide de la lune,
Ton sol sec et dur. Pour que naisse de notre union, seule trace vivante de Moi,
La plus tenace des mandragores!

Elle s'йpanouira,
En mкme temps que disparaоtront
De mon visage,
Les traits de l'effroi,
Et de mes tissus,
La gangrиne qui les ronge.

Le plus beau des anges,
Qui fait si peur aux hommes,
Prendra l'Homme nouveau,
Sous ses ailes,
Et lui avouera le terrible mensonge:
"Si tu as tant souffert, c'йtait pour Moi!
Tes larmes et ton sang йtaient ma semence afin que devienne mienne,
Une nuit comme celle-ci... ton вme meurtrie.
Et le dйlice fiйvreux de la revanche. "