Antestor

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To be what I have become
a treacherous domain

Sing with me this last song
as I lay myself to rest
unfulfilled promises of change
this is the end
sing for me this swan-song
everlasting hope disappearing

Built upon promises of gold
makes this deceit tenfold
I have caressed this lie
forsaken I will die

Sing with me this last song
before I lay myself to rest
all I've ever been will be gone
sing for me this manifest

Fraud


2. Unchained


I was an easy prey for you
better than believe that those
days are over now

Naivety of the past so sick
of being abused

Forgiving is not forgetting

My revenge boils inside
though I try to oppress it but
I cannot deny my newborn
freedom

Forgiving is not forgetting

A broken heart mended no
more crying in vain regrets
suffer ignorance all feelings
are dead

Some wounds heal with time

I welcome this new reality
and call it my own

Rage, because you of hate,
because of you fallen,
because of you reborn,
because of you

Forgiven and forgotten


3. In Solitude


Frantic I scream in agony of not being
able to reach my goals wars inside
my head

I do my best, I give my all still I'm so far
away trying to keep my hope I stumble
and I fall

As I lay here, waiting for you beside me,
to keep me calm

My head held high, my outside unscathed
no one to ask, no one to help I'm left
here all alone

Battle rages all day long bitterness
seldom comes alone fury becoming my
strength and seems to be the only way
to survive

All pain that I've ever known I reap only
what my past has sown no secrets
are kept from you as you witness my
attempts to ignore

Frantic I scream in agony of not being
able to reach my goals wars inside
my head

I do my best, I give my all still I'm so far
away trying to keep my hope I stumble
and I fall

I ask for forgiveness but my screams
are unheard my claims misunderstood
ignorance has won

As I lay here, waiting for You beside
me, to keep me calm I feel your spirit
comforting me and within me,
I'm saved through grace


4. The Kindling


No chains needed to keep me still
strangulation does not keep me from screaming
no poison can deny the truth
purification has replaced my anger

Outcast, freak
titles made by those who fear the unknown
infectious, leper lack of wisdom overpowers
humanity

Leper in disguise

Injustice has been served for several years
a life ignored by most
never again will I keep to myself
my actions speak louder than words

Outcast, freak
titles made by those who fear the unknown
infectious, leper
lack of wisdom overpowers humanity

No chains needed to keep me still
strangulation does not keep me from screaming
no poison can deny the truth
purification has replaced my anger

My silence has broken


5. Remnants


Stabbed in the back by the most trusted individual leaves
mental scars that time will not heal I will never forget, and
I cannot possibly forgive locked away in the back of my
mind forever it is like a hibernating cancer

Abandoning my name
fleeing from an invisible force
many years have passed
still the daggers are caressing my skin

Breathe, feel, deny, search, find, receive

Animal behavior, these darwinistic thoughts certifies my
human nature forgiving and forgetting can only be done
through divine intervention

Abandoning my name
fleeing from an invisible force
many years have passed
still the daggers are caressing my skin

Breathe, feel, deny, search, find, receive

Doors are closed, I hold the key will they stay like this
for eternity searching for what I don't want to find a
hibernating cancer hibernating cancer

But I don't want to forget and therefore
I cannot ever forgive

Gazing at the mirror trying to find small remnants of my
soul which have been left behind during childhood
the memories and the shame.

All that's left is revenge all that's real is revenge

Breathe, feel, search, find, receive

Doors open by the touch of my hand hibernating cancer
awakens

Euphoria, redemption

Stabbed in the back by the most trusted individual it
leaves mental scars that only God can heal I will never
forget, and I cannot possibly forgive locked away in the
back of my mind forever it is like a hibernating cancer


6. All Towers Must Fall


Brothers!
Trust not the kings of this world
trust not the snakes by the crowns on their heads

The scorching of septic flesh, the riddance of the yoke
they have lured upon us, scorching into our flesh
the melting of golden crown into ploughshares

Be not like the princes
rip not your heart of flesh out in search of a golden one
glory of this world is but vapour

All towers will tear and fall to the ground

Trust not the kings of this world
for ever to their shackles they us bind
look for not to their sliver for hope, that blinding glimmer

Let not our thoughts be bent to the ways of their greed
for ever like a rabid mongrel
greed bite the hands that feeds it

Let justice be wreaked on the wolves of their thrones

Brothers!
Let us be rid of this curse
let us be different, let us inverse

The riches of this world are but vapour,
towers ready to fall

In the valley of death we are all beggars

Their castles will crumble, and the waves run them over
and grind them to sand

All towers must fall, throne rooms and gilded halls
facing the flood of an unending tide

All tyrants will crawl, like the snakes they were
stealing, making idols for their own destruction
false flames in the hearts of man

All flesh will rot, all hearts will stop

We will look for embers of humanity in the ashes
of the empires brought to justice


7. Torn Apart


Self-inflicted mental scars
protected by memories old

Seeing something from a different view
it could not help less

Broken and beaten I face another day
unleashed into this cold world

Mistrust and decay
I couldn't care less

Continuing this seemingly hopeless journey
scars from the past push aside the pain
alive but not living
the life of the undead

Still you remain and maintain your powers
trying my best to neglect your ways

Victory seems so far gone
death just a razors edge away

Mistrust and decay
I couldn't care less

My life is not worth living
how can I stand this pain
there is no reason to exist
I wasn't asked to join this sick game

Self-inflicted mental scars
protected by memories old
seeing something from a different view
it could not help

Praying for more than hope
is the only light in this darkness
torn apart as I may be

Ready to be rebuilt


8. Tilflukt


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9. Benighted


Her kisses were like being embraced by life itself
dressed in a funeral gown she was more
beautiful than I ever could remember

The true source overwhelms me
embraced by this entity
the fullness of her beauty
lacks the imperfection of humanity

Like an angel she came
but like a demon she flew away
joy turned to sadness
hope turned to hate

Fooled yet again by the lies of mankind
fooled yet again by the lies

Like an angel she came
but like a demon she flew away
joy turned to sadness
hope turned to hate

All alone I wander in the darkness
lost and dazed I cease to exist
visions of old comes to mind
I've been through this before

Joy turned to sadness
hope turned to hate

Will I ever dare to feel again
or is this my everlasting bitter end


10. Mørkets Grøde


Smerte, min kjærkomne venn
du svikter ei når alt annet er ikledd bedrag

Lyset, så ukjent og fjernt
minner om en gammel kjenning
som nå fordømmer hvert steg
og hver tanke jeg tenker

Her er alt jeg eier
min sorg, min angst, mitt dødsønske
så ikke kom her og redd meg
jeg vil heller drepes enn å glemme den sorg jeg har

Jeg forakter alt som glimer av håp
og mine øyne har lukket seg for godt
nå ser jeg døden sende roser med mitt navn
det varmer godt i en utgrått sjel, det fyller opp mitt savn

Se minnene brenner
se ordene svir
se blemmene skapt av svikende frender
se mitt bryst revet opp av kjærlighetens løgn

Her er alt jeg eier
min sorg, min angst, mitt dødsønske
så ikke kom her og redd meg
jeg vil heller drepes enn å glemme den sorg jeg har

Smerte, min kjærkomne venn
du sviktet ei, du har fulgt meg til veis ende

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