Anacrusis

orgotten how...
I have forgotten how...
I have forgotten how...
How to believe

Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me from destroying all I love
Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me

The pain has stripped away all rationale
And left suspicion in it's place
I wish I could cling to this with different arm
And never know the feeling of loss or emptiness

Oder...
Wiser...
Sadder...
Trust has abandoned me lost ago
Stolen by careful dishonesty
I have forgotten how...
I have forgotten how...
I have forgotten how...
How to believe

Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me from destroying all I love
Stop me from loving to destroy
Stop me

The death of youth breathes life into this fear
Suffocating confidence
I die each day so I can save myself
I close my eyes, ignore the truth
And try hard to pretend

So afraid...
So afraid...
So afraid...of myself
Stop me...
Stop me...what?s wrong with me?
Stop me...what's wrong with me?
Stop me...






TERRIFIED

(Lyrics by K. Heidbreder)

Misted eyes perceive
Thoughts I can’t perceive
Emotions that run free
Never let me be
Self-inflicted pain
It’s a loss without a gain
Lost in myself, I know not why
I can’t escape, all truth a lie
I try to run, I cannot hide
I’m so afraid, I’m terrified

Mirror’s hollow stare
Reflecting my nightmare
All I see pure hate
Soon I’ll suffocate
Confusion taking me
Eclipsing all I see
Lost in myself, I know not why
I can’t escape this fear inside
I cannot run, I cannot hide
Lost in myself, I’m terrified

Silent are the waters
Of life flowing free
Born through illusion
From the depths of me
Engulfed in the current
Of many tears
It carried me to serenity…
To serenity

Terrified...
Terrified...
Terrified...






NOT FORGOTTEN

(Lyrics by J. Emery)

Your ambition has been disrupted
Young minds so easily corrupted
The system is fighting itself
A fatal blow shall be dealt
Thrown into the tide of uncertainty
Have your dreams smashed completely
The norm dictates your future for you

Hopelessness and despair
Face the grim reality
Individual concerns
Eclipse the world’s humanity

Corruption won’t dissipate
It’s standing in your path
Our leaders chase their tails
Frightened by subversive wrath
Thrown into the tide of uncertainty
Have your dreams smashed completely
The norm dictates your future for you

Hopelessness and despair
Face the grim reality
Individual concerns
Eclipse the world’s humanity

Redemption is at hand
Now your scheme has taken form
We'll take the final step
And instigate reform
Thrown into the tide of uncertainty
Have your dreams smashed completely
The norm dictates your future for you

Hopelessness and despair
Face the grim reality
Individual concerns
Eclipse the world’s humanity

Looking the other way
Solves nothing of our problems
Take the step and unite
Tomorrow will not be forgotten
Tomorrow will not be forgotten






WRONG

(Lyrics by K. Nardi)

Wrong, all that we are
Living, breathing lies
Wrong, all that I feel
All compassion dies

Once hand in hand
And now detached
Befriend the pace, the lonely trace…detached

Wrong, all that I see
Something inside denies
Wrong, all that I feel
Something inside me cries

Once hand in hand
And now detached
Befriend the pace, the lonely trace…detached

What can I say when there are no words?
I can’t explain what I cannot understand…

Wrong, all that we do
Dismiss the things we’ve said
Wrong, all we become
We stumble misguided

Once hand in hand
And now detached
Befriend the pace, the lonely trace…detached

Something in you, something in me
We’re trying to control
Something in you, something in me
We’re trying to overcome
Something in you, something in me
We’re trying to understand
Something in you, something in me
We’re trying to break out

What can I say when there are no words?
I can’t explain what I cannot understand…

Wrong
Wrong
Wrong






SILENT CRIME

(Lyrics by K. Nardi)

It’s running rampant in our streets
It’s lying dormant in our homes
This silent crime we are guilty of
Is enough to sentence us to life or death...

It’s running rampant in our streets
It’s lying dormant in our homes
This silent crime we are guilty of
Is enough to sentence us to life or death

Deny the future, reject technology
Protest advancement
And you’ll shroud the world
In the rags of failed ideals…

The fear of change had bound us all
Silent, we watch our world decay
And we’ll return to the Dark Ages…
Again…again…

Deny the future, reject technology
Protest advancement
And you’ll shroud the world
In the rags of failed ideals…

Stifle the growth and progress dies
Watch our once-spinning world stand still
And in this, the Age of Stagnation, we’ll remain

Deny the future, reject technology
Protest advancement
And you’ll shroud the world
In the rags of failed ideals…






MISSHAPEN INTENT

(Lyrics by J. Emery)

Wandering aimlessly, stricken with grief
Self-hatred overflowing
It’s eating away
It’s eating away, obstructing virtue
Overwhelming and growing
The enduring might of hatred
Obscuring the strength of love

There are those who live deriving pleasure
From others’ anguish and mental distress
Complete selfishness providing purpose
Compelling us to digress
The enduring might of hatred
Obscuring the strength of love

Tainting the innocent
With spiteful contempt
Tainting the innocent
A shallow, misshapen intent

Oblivious to out hardship
Rehearse the solemn ritual

Wandering aimlessly, stricken with grief
Self-hatred overflowing
It’s eating away
It’s eating away, obstructing virtue
Overwhelming and growing
The enduring might of hatred
Obscuring the strength of love

Tainting the innocent
With spiteful contempt
Tainting the innocent
A shallow, misshapen intent






AFRAID TO FEEL

(Lyrics by K. Nardi)

I paint myself on you…the silent wall
My words…my thoughts…my touch…my all
Emotionless…emotionless…
So in control of nothingness
This stone false-face you’re caged within…
Wears thin…

You pour yourself out into me…the lonely thirst
Quenching the emptiness inside
But I frighten you…I frighten you…
I take your breath and smother you…
As you fight for your life…
I cling on for mine…
For mine…

So in control…so in control of nothingness
So in control…so in control…
Afraid to feel

I know you’re there somewhere…
Too close to touch
I’m digging too deeply…
You’re too clear to see

But I frighten you…I frighten you…
I take your breath and smother you…
As you fight for your life…
I cling on for mine…
For mine…






CHILD INSIDE

(Lyrics by K. Nardi)

You wear, like an enemy
A false sense of security
With your bullshit integrity
You’d lose it all for your dignity

And you tell yourself “You’re so brave”
Yeah, man, fight for yours until you’re dead
Well there’s plenty of that already filling holes
Before you use your fists, why don’t you use you head?
Sometimes we’re overcome
By the child inside
We grow, and never grow inside

Well I play games I don’t see
Accepting false hospitality
With kind words your disguise deceit
Yeah, I help you and you screw me

And somehow you think you fool someone
Surely someday this mask will fall
You find strength in one on one
But there’s something real in all for all

Sometimes we’re overcome
By the child inside
We grow, and never grow inside

And you tell yourself “You’re so brave”
Yeah, man, fight for yours until you’re dead
Well there’s plenty of that already filling holes
Before you use your fists, why don’t you use you head?
Sometimes we’re overcome
By the child inside
We grow, and never grow inside






VITAL

(Lyrics by J. Emery)

The gentle embrace of death
Touches my weary soul
I’m closer to the end now
Enough despair! I’m whole!

Destined to make the right choice
My existence, a constant struggle

Soon I will at last be free
Of my chemical burden
My consciousness is raised
Without society’s poison

Destined to make the right choice
I exist but I have to feel vital

Helpless, abandoned
Relentless attack
Realize my dreams
I can’t turn back
Always doubting yet indecisive
Meandering convictions become so pensive

Part of me wants to live
I grope for a reason
Yet I’ll be granted solace
Seeming serene…open

Destined to make the right choice
I exist but I have to feel vital






QUICK TO DOUBT

(Lyrics by K. Nardi)

Was I wrong? Wrong in assuming
That nothing at all, without thought would just fall into place?
Was it hope, that something would change me
That led me to see the mistakes that had gutted my frame?

Was it strength, yearning for purpose?
Or weakness just desperately searching for something to fix?
To create, from self-induced ruin
To try and rebuild what remains from what I have destroyed

Why’d I make is so hard?
So quick to doubt?
So ready to fuck myself over…

Was it truth, logic or reason
Disappointment or fear that led me to question all things?
Far beneath the self-inflicted wreckage
I rest in pathetic assurance that failure is safe

Why’d I make it so hard?
So quick to doubt?
So ready to fuck myself again…

Was I wrong? Wrong in assuming
That nothing at all, without thought would just fall into place?
Was it hope, that something would change me
That led me to see the mistakes that had gutted my frame?

Why’d I make it so hard?
So quick to doubt?
So ready to fuck myself over
So ready to fuck myself again…






KILLING MY MIND

(Lyrics by K. Heidbreder)

Aware, yet unaware
Falling, falling, why?
Blind! Ignorance the key
Stupidity overrides
My thoughts belong to me
Although my mind rebels
Reality, shaded meaning
Denial is my cell
Killing... my mind

Victimize my own belief
Defy myself! Find no relief
Obtrusive walls cannot reveal
Cast out myself and all I feel

My eyes refuse to see
All I must endure
Revealing walls of doubt
Reality so obscure
Searching, I’m searching
It’s one who’s deep within
Beside myself I stand
And now I must begin
Killing... my mind

Victimize my own belief
Defy myself! Find no relief
Obtrusive walls cannot reveal
Cast out myself and all I feel

The self inside is so sincere
Avoid the truth, the honest fear
Intensify all that remains
Bind it now with self restraints






INJUSTICE

(Lyrics by J. Emery)

They manipulate and they mold
The rules they should uphold
His ignorance of the law is the victim’s only flaw
His rights in violation
Through sharp intimidation
He’s soon to realize that their words are full of lies

A scapegoat he now is
Because of the way he lives
He hasn’t got a chance
To prove his innocence
People cry for justice
But the law will not take heed
Innocent victims get the shaft
But what happened to truth?
...Injustice for all

Coerced to pleading guilt
Their judgements all are built on bullshit and hearsay
They’ll keep him locked away
He rots inside his cage
His oppression and his rage now apathy and disgust
Not a soul now he can trust

Injustice has subdued him
Deceived, repressed, unglued him
Non one her can turn to
To wait is all he can do
Persecution obvious
Life becomes oblivious
Fate’s found him unwary
He’s trapped, he cannot flee

A scapegoat he now is
Because of the way he lives
He hasn’t got a chance
To prove his innocence
People cry for justice
But the law will not take heed
Innocent victims get the shaft
But what happened to truth?
...Injustice for all

Injustice…
Injustice…
Injustice…
Injustice for all