to blame
Real life you don’t wanna play

Frozen as you feel the terror of the real
The jolt of the true is just too much for you

Rude awakening they can be very ugly things

Time will come for you to search your soul
Maybe you’ll find out that you’re not so bold
Life’s too rough left you out in the cold
Try to get a grip fool try to grab a hold

Dreams lies one and the same
Realize your big chance never came
Dream and lie find someone to blame
Real life you don’t wanna play

No this is not a drill no scheme to test your will
You don’t get it do ya? Just stand there as they screw ya

Rude awakening they can be very ugly things (wake up)

Somebody screaming "someone help me"
Sounding echoes in the empty
No one answers no one’s there none come running
No one cares
Addicted to your apathetic ways
Kept you at the bottom the bottom’s where you’ll stay
Suspended animation locked inside your head
Will it be any different when you are really dead?
Show me the future am I afraid?
Is this what I was given or what I’ve made?
I watch what I say
I watch what I feel
Yeah I’m alright but I’m no big deal
Head’s on straight so I know what is real
Hard earned glory too easy to steal

Frozen as you feel the terror of the real
The jolt of the true is just too much for you

Rude awakening they can be very ugly things


2. Enemy Mine

Tear down who I was before
Tear down feelings at the core
Sold me lies right before my eyes
I won’t buy them anymore

You’ve taken my trust (the enemy)
Pounded it into dust (the enemy)
Now I’ve started to see (the enemy)
You look to me like the enemy

True or false are you friend or foe?
True or false I have to know
Thought I knew you saw through
Want to see your true colors show

(The enemy) You’ve taken my trust
(The enemy) Pounded it into dust
(The enemy) Now I’ve started to see
(The enemy) My enemy

They tell you "Know your enemy"
It took me much too long to see
You built the perfect gleaming lie that I deny

You swim uncharted waters in shark infested seas
The next thing you know your legs end at the knees
You’re lying down with dogs

You’re waking up with fleas

You couldn’t wouldn’t see

The forest for the trees liar
Now that I feel I’ve found all that I fear
I need one more simple truth to appear
Did I willingly forbid myself to see
Hearing what I wanted what I needed to hear

(The enemy) You’ve taken my trust
(The enemy) Pounded it into dust
(The enemy) Now I’ve started to see
(The enemy) My enemy


3. Chameleon

Sweat dripping down from my face
Contemplating my relevance
Worthlessness disgrace
Realization has made me sad
My idiosyncrasies are yours
No reactions are of my own
I fight a battle inside myself
Tortured by the constant
Longing to be whole like you
My core is the mangled elf
How is it everybody else can have their own beliefs?
Why is it no one else suffers from this emptiness?
Tried to offer my own ideas
But the threat of disapproval had terrified me
No more my soul I will reveal

You don’t know it but I see you
You don’t know it but I know you
You don’t know it but I sense your essence and suck it in
You don’t know it but I am you

I’ve found that people need themselves
Mutual agreement comforts them
Without it they’re in my cell
Perhaps in that way I help
I’m the catalyst that will allow your peace
But who helps me from this hell?

You don’t know it but I see you
You don’t know it but I know you

I don’t want to disappear
At times it works out well
I gain a personality I desire
Briefly out of my hell
And as I venture away and towards another case
My automatic defense is strangling me
Color change takes place
I’m on a leash owned by who I’m with
Thrown around in circles
My emotions are changing fast
Confused I’m losing my grip

You don’t know it but I see you
You don’t know it but I know you
You don’t know it but I sense your essence and suck it in
You don’t know it but I am you

Chameleon


4. I Breathe Fire

I have arrived I am alive I have survived
I know what you’ve been told
I’m here to save you from that lie
Life’s mysteries explained away for centuries
False prophets hide you from the truth
I am the one who made the earth and the sun
Allow me to supply you with the truth

I breathe fire Live for me
I breathe fire Die for me

Lies they practice to deceive
Lies you happily believe
Lies you gave and they received
The answer’s here at last I know you all must be relieved
Locked inside your head until the day that you are dead
Heaven’s great rewards all lie in wait
Little do you know that when it’s time for you to go
Half of you they won’t let through the gate

I breathe fire Live for me
I breathe fire Die for me

Out with the old lies in with the new
Spellbound watching sparks fly
Little man speak with forked tongue
I’ve been to hell it’s not 5o bad
I see these religions just a fad
I know my lies are bigger than you’ve had
The way you look for truth inside a myth is really sad
Please form a line and kindly empty out your mind
Forget the other lies that you have sworn
I am here to save you all as long as you behave
Who will be the first to be reborn?

I breathe fire Live for me
I breathe fire Die for me


5. Ugly Is To The Bone

You file through my world throwing popcorn and beer
With hatred so blind that it’s all I ever hear
Everyday hundreds are welcomed inside
To point at me laugh at me question my pride
But if I were to show up on your doorstep tonight
Would you open your door? Would you let me inside?

Enter and see nature’s misery
Enter and feed sick curiosity
Come inside and behold as horrors unfold
Enter and see nature’s misery
I’ve played in your game long enough
From the sorrowful day of my birth
But my god in heaven above says
"The freaks shall inherit the earth"

I’m the missing link between the real world and yours
The ugliness you hide from behind your locked doors
Seeing me makes you feel safe and secure
You go home and thank heaven it’s not you or yours
I am labeled a monster though I am your brother
Look away from me there’ll always be another…

Enter and see nature’s misery
Enter and feed sick curiosity
Come inside and behold as horrors unfold
Enter and see nature’s misery
Was this all destiny’s intent?
To live my tortured life in this tent?
It’s a roll of the dice you see
That’s separating you from me

One or more of me in your family tree
Look into the mirror for the enemy not me
Feel my pain
It’s the words that we speak that make a man a freak
The attitude the ignorance the reasons that we seek
Feel my pain


6. Slow Burn



7. Blood Flood

Dripping onto their tongues flowing into their lungs
Quenching soulless bloodthirst up and down their throats
Growing fat and bloating filled up to exploding
Throwing up your fluid drinking up again
Suffering is so slow watching our own blood flow
Hearts are pumping fluid from the very core
Leave us hanging as we pour ourselves out unto the floor
Need to suck heart and soul have none of their own

And the blood flow begins in the blood in the flood
And we can never be drained in the blood in the flood

Rows of dripping cattle hang ripe and ready for the fang
Filed and defiled re-filed numbered without name
Feeding on the innocent pure of heart of intent
Years drain out of us like water from a tap

And the blood flow begins in the blood in the flood
And we can never be drained in the blood in the flood

Dreaming of an open vein giving them what they crave
Spraying crimson on the walls walls forever stained
We will bleed forever a tidal wave unleashed
Washing them away drowning in their greed
Our blood is sour but revenge is sweet
Maybe the blood that they drown in be their own

Droplets raining in the roads pools overflowing blood
To rivers grow rivers oceans of blood
Blood


8. One Man Army

Thought I left this all behind I was there again today
Seemed a thousand years ago and a million miles away
Suddenly I lost it all it was real I swear
Somewhere out there warfare

Now it feels like hell in my head
I’m a one man army

Always fighting with my mind I hold the past at bay
Secret wars in a private hell more and
more they come each day
Memory reality they’ve become one and the same
Somewhere out there warfare

Now it feels like hell in my head
I’m a one man army
I got hell in my hand
I’m a one man army

The war within me never felt so real
The war will win me too hard to conceal
All the horrors of warfare I just couldn’t believe
Once you’ve lived there you will never leave
It’s coming to me now it won’t be long
It’s gonna take me back where I belong
I see the enemy all around seems like they’re everywhere
A panic builds inside my gut but my mission remains clear
Take them all out one by one 'til the last man falls
Somewhere out there warfare

Now it feels like hell in my head
I’m a one man army
I got hell in my hand
I’m a one man army


9. Spirit In Decay

Thrown into this room so long ago
Seems I’ve lost track of the time
Exactly where I am I do not know
This is their homeland not mine

Thrown down your hands bound make not a sound

Food and water scarce if anything
Little English spoken here
It’s hard to remember anything
Before this constant state of fear
It’s too late accept your fate deteriorate
They manipulate the truth I’m a lost forgotten soul
They say I’ll end my life here in this hole
They’re pushing these ideas into my head
But I don’t hear a thing I know I’m already

Agents of the free turn your back to me
Freedom I await the day
In my heart I hold a hope that tears my soul
Spirit in decay
It’s getting harder every night
To summon up the will to fight

To those of us who chose to forget them:
How can we constantly refuse to go get them?
I don’t believe a filthy stinking word they’ve said to me
I don’t believe my family thinks this is the end of me
I don’t believe my country won’t attempt to rescue me
I don’t believe a word no

Agents of the free turn your back to me
Freedom I await the day
In my heart I hold a hope that tears my soul
Spirit in decay

Those at home no doubt sleep well
Worlds away from this living hell


10. Dead Man's Smile

On parole out of the hole a free man once again
A law was passed you’re out so fast laws were made to bend
Twisted brain feels no pain the system could not mend
Time to reap what others sow a predator you ascend

Criminal frustration building up inside
Rehabilitation a drop against the tide
Social deviation societal suicide your twisted mind
Locked away in a tomb for a while
Committing your crimes with a dead man’s smile

My time is here barely a year a temporary stall
I was a slave I learned to behave In the end I fooled them all
People’s fear that put me here those people seem so small
I am reborn forever sworn to make those people crawl

Criminal frustration building up inside
Rehabilitation a drop against the tide
Social deviation societal suicide your twisted mind
Locked away in a tomb for a while
Committing your crimes with a dead man’s smile

Where’s your mommy? Where’s your daddy?
I won’t hurt you have some candy


11. Dreadnaut Day

No emotion here vague sensation: Fear
One thought loud and clear: No one gets near
See the cold stare but look past
Peel away the false face mask
Ironclad the die has been cast

Ran away until today the man who was is gone

Human flesh safe warm weather every storm
Watch this man transform watch his face deform
Pounded into shape altered inner landscape
Twisted head mind rape

Now you see machinery is all there is to me
Is all that’s left of me
Today is dreadnaut day I can see the only way
Is dreadnaut day chew you up spit you out
Now get the hell out of my way
You’ve given up control of your fate
Now you are what you hate Step aside

Gone spark will to be all humanity
Destined now to be a one way machine
Self destruction mode deliver payload
Time bomb snap explode

Now you see machinery is all there is to me
Is all that’s left of me
Today is dreadnaut day I can see the only way
Is dreadnaut day chew you up spit you out

Now get the hell out of my way